I want you to,

Strum my feelings into a melody
Paint my gaze with beauty
Carry me , fulfil me
Be the sum of all my envy
Be all the things I will not
And can never be
Fill this pit of self pity
Live this life for me
Give me all you have
Devote to me eternally

I desire all that you are
All you have ever been
I will consume you empty
Until you fade away into me

Such is our greed

Found in the clutter
Hidden And dusty
Forgotten but familiar
Words on paper
An old picture
A subtle reminder
Happiness and laughter
Sadness maybe anger
A Lost pillar
Replacing and filling
A void gone unknown
A crumb leading to a whole

Who am I
I can't help but feel that I am leaving pieces behind. Moments and thoughts that are forever lost to me, yet weight heavy, they are the things that can never change. These moments are however the source of my changes the pressure that mould's my being. Here at the precipice of tomorrow I hold on to these moments before I let them go, forever I am here with nothing keep but the scars of my life.
That is who I am

Like an autumn tree
We wither our leaves falling without remorse
Still we stand
Ready to endure the sharp cold and somber nights 
To withstand and survive in hope the spring will once again renew

Listen for our last song whilst the cold fall wind brushes by one final breath
Let us be at our brightest even in the face of our demise
Let us hold on until we make our final journey 
Let us fall to our final resting place with grace and humility

Lost and buried
Frozen discarded 
Decomposed but not forgotten
For while we live we flourished

Endless days of spinning nights
Walking among the lost souls of our lives
On this beaten surface nothing feels right
Just want to pack my dreams and take flight

Ascend into the storms and rain
Climb away from fear and pain
Pierce thru the shadows into the light
The barrier between the good and the bad
The abyss that separates the happy and the sad

Floating on a floor of rolling clouds
Where the sun always shines
The nights are always lit by the stars
Endless peace hiding all the scars

Some days I just want to leave this ball
Climb high above it all
Miles up our problems are so small
No divisions forget the walls
But what goes up must someday fall

Can no longer evade gravity
Suddenly brought back to reality
Falling thru to our truth
Dim days and darker nights
Living in the shadow of the heavens

Killing like the animal I am
Without flinching I take aim
No need to support the weight of my finger
As I turn around and walk away
With a grin I wonder
If he heard a noise before the light went out

I can look into your eyes
See all that you hide
All you have left to do
Is hope I have mercy for you
A lost cause

A notch on a handle  
Is what you have become
A distant memory of what I have done
No matter how it begun
You will stare at the wrong end of my gun

A man once asked me if I felt pain
As my heart pumped ice thru my veins
I looked him strait in the eyes
And told him about the warm feeling inside
When people like him die

Tonight I cannot sleep
For reasons hidden in the deep
Questioning my existence, my essence
Wondering why I’m so merciless

Ever since I plunged my life into the dark
I have live without my heart
So many things I have seen fall apart
In my demise I put my feelings away

Something is different now
I can’t seem to take you down
In your eyes I see myself
In your fear I feel at home
In your pain you’re not alone

I can’t bear do this again
See another life come to its end
I drop the gun and let you run

Like a shiny ticket to hell
My gun sat on the floor
I wondered if I was ready to walk thru that door
Was Satan’s puppet ready to go home?

Now with closer I know they all went out in silence

You’ve pulled yourself away
The distance between us
Filling with emptiness everyday
Into the shadows you fade
Stretched to my breaking point
I can’t follow you down
I must let you go, my light is running out
I wish you would’ve just turned around
You meant so much to me

To the darkness I have lost you
Into emptiness I must let you go
You hear no good and see no light
You barely put up a fight

I stuck it out for as long as I could
Down this path, you knew I would
I can’t believe the day has arrived
I never thought I’d leave your side
But in many ways you have left mine

Slowly I saw you fade
I don’t know why you turned this way
I saw your light turn to gray
In complete uncertainty, what should I say?
I wish I wouldn’t of let you sink so low
It’s to late now your one with your shadow

So lonely as I walk back into the light
So comforting when the day turns to night
  The shade is so soothing even in the cold
I see this path starting to unfold
I need you; I’m unable to fight this alone
I turn and run into the emptiness, the dark you call home