No one ever listened
But I swear I had something to say
I kept my emotions bottled up
Day after day

I sung to the choir
And preached to the church  
But congregations built walls
And the stain glass still hurts

Why do we have freedom of speech
If no one hears
My problems aren't fading
And neither are my tears

I turn to my notebook
Tears streaming down my face
I write and I write
But I won't leave any trace ---

Wait.
Again?
Broken record some might say...
You're together then you're not
Which one is gonna stay?

Oh.
Him?
Some might consider it a sin...
Hes hurt you and you've hurt him
You're shocked he did it again?

Stop.
Its over?
Too many people call you bluff...
You love her then you hate her
But you think you've had it tough?

The children.
They hurt?
They've cried and then they've healed
But their scars will never be mended and certainly not sealed

Hurry, run
They all smell fear
Don't look now
They're drawing near

We flee from those
Who tower in the halls
The ones who mock us
And push us into walls

They copy our walks
And our looks of fear
We quicken our pace
And rapidly wipe the tears

"Dont be so childish"
"Want a clean slate?"
"We will stop when we want to"
But it might be too late

They see our scared faces
Rushing in the halls
But they don't see the blood streaked arms
That stay inside our room walls.

Hurry, run
They all smell fear
Dont look now...
Shh its too late my dear.

yesterday things were going pretty great
I loved you and you loved and we both called it "fate"

tonight I sit here whipping away my tears
scared that we wont be together for the rest of our years.

you say she didn't mean it, and that everything is fine
but even her best friend said she wanted this the whole **** time.

im tired, im sad, and im really not ok
not that I would tell you that, you feel really far away.

it all just collapsed, ended all to fast
Im not ready to think of us as something in the past.

can we just undo that night, pretend it was all fake
I really cant lose you or us, I hope that's not a choice either of us make.

i hate to start this poem out
with the word goodbye,
but its time for us to both move on
and i say so with a sigh.

i wont forget the things we did
and all the memories we share
you will always be a part of me
and remeber ill always care.

i know we ended on bad terms
and things didnt go as planned
but please cherish all the good things we did
for all those things are grand

im done with hating you
for breaking my heart in half
and im glad we can talk some now because
you can always make me laugh.

im happy with the memories
the talking on the phone all night
but im happy now that we have both moved on
and there no longer is a fight

i am thankful for the lessons you taught me
and the all memories we have
so goodbye my first almost love
ill never forget our past.