In the threat puzzling me
will grows stronger forgetting fears
I want to see it all
From every angle of the angels
demonstrating consecration even in the ill
and when i DO !
i might go blind overwhelmed
restraint can see such subtle joys
outside of toys and games
tune me to the key of we
and let me be real as well
find me in the right time 3;33 or 11:11
the wishing time
and carve the trees with unspoken vows
recited only by birds
and in a drop of water striking the surface
of silver ponds
wish

Your look was a premise of a promise
missing link inviting the young ideal
to be replayed starring you
This look woke me up in the lighter airs
Where adam and eve forget to eat
in ageless passion no birth no death
shameless love clothed them in each others embrace
With no knowledge
They walked the garden of earthly delights
hand in hand as gods
i smiled
and looked away
until you disappeared
Into someone elses
glances

whatever is definitely a passive aggressssive nuclear bomb
when dropped out of the mouth off hand
. A dismissal and a subtle knife
A regret for the apathetic who have a change of heart
on their death bed, lying there retasting brief moments life gave.
Maybe you will call me in sincere apology .
maybe you will or  won't
whatever.

Sneaking in my house parents alseep . you ask me if you should leave.
a three hour drive  here , now, 3 am  
a lover who was left
boomeranged back and I didnt want to abandon you
The answer that would have led to another life for me
leave now what are you doing here show some respect!
instead we danced
And relived our trained puppet record
parental misguidance is easy to follow
love doesnt want to abandon
lust until it stings

Why do you invite me to destroy my shelf? the other
Was it jealousy of my lack of good sense? the self
Did my speeches ring false in your church bells? the group
Perhaps I had beauty in your eyes taken up by it ? the hungry
I proudly displayed by egotistical selflessness before you changed? the it
Old tricks on new friends ending friendships with absorbtion! no soul?
yes , a setup that was painted and written and signed in tears .  unslept?
recording  the sun and then recording the image on tv of its light.
repeatedly.

(                                              )  to be decided later
2 . waaaa mommy i want my stock portfolio diversified
#? " chocolate pudding , smuckers ice cream topping, flushit
My country has no borders tyranasaurous rex eating veal
4. This is the truth as it can be represent by a model however inperfect . hey wanna go bACK TO MY PLACE?! :) NUDGE
5 i forgot what this was remember to remember it later when you ar4e relaxed.
^ 6  i only eat vegaterians that are under the age of (   )   - 60 years
its all relative and fun when you get away foxing outfoxing , convincing yourself of plans being worth planning for and carry you through timespace
&7 . We are we being  is

The most you left the house in a week
was a peek out the screen door
All those exposed scurry about out
there and falsely carry your irrational fears
You think they care to judge you ?
Are you reading their minds
from a passing bored glance?

half read pages cracked open spines
books don't talk back or have eyes
You watch tv all day long avoiding
real human contact .
So proud of the few phonecalls
that you make and take
as if you had allowed yourself
to meet outsiders from another world

Stop avoiding life and don't waste time on tv
organize , clear your clutter seize the days
these hopeful fresh days without obsessing
about things you can't change
exchange tv remote for will and action
come alive honestly out of your moonburned
pale skin
pity filled  shutin
go with purpose
brave worldly wounds and heal all at once

don't  be just a phonecall