Chérie

Chérie Aug 2019

I Hate everything about myself
I Hate that I'm not a good mother
I Hate that I'm not a good grandma
I Hate that I'm not a good girlfriend
I Hate that I'm not a good friend
I Hate that I'm not a good lover
I Hate that I'm not a good sister
I Hate that I'm not good at anything
I Hate that I wasn't a good daughter
I Hate my life and myself
I Hate me!!

Chérie Aug 2019

Why Do You Stay?

Why do you stay?
Are you just using me for a place to stay, until somebody new comes along?
Why do you stay?
Is it because you see me as someone who is pathetic and won't say anything?
Why do you stay?
Is it because you have no place else to go?
Why do you stay?
I know it's not because you love me.
Why do you stay?
When you are not happy with me.
Why do you stay?
I have told you numerous times that I am not the right woman for you and to find someone who will give you all your wants and needs.
Please answer me, why do you stay?

Chérie Jun 2019

Guilt Me...

Guilting me, Making me feel like I wronged you.
Guiting me, Making me feel like I'm not suppose to be happy.
Guilting me, Making me think you deserve happiness and not I.
Guilting me, Making me feel like the ******* that I am.
Guilting me, Making me out to be the bad guy even now.
Guilting me, Making me think it's fine for you to be happy with another but not I.
Guilting me, Making me feel undeserving of anything.
Guilting me...

Chérie May 2019

Untitled

I should really be fearing myself, I am my own poison, my own prison cell.
My mind takes over, I start thinking and then only begin to think the worst. I am a very emotional and sensitive person and take a lot to heart. I have depressed myself, I fought back tears and the ones I couldn't fell like rain today.

Chérie May 2019

Broken and Damaged

It's all I want to do is cry,
But I'm fighting back the tears,
Because it's all I can do.
I feel so empty inside,
I'm just broken and damaged goods.
And I really should just be alone.
I should just stay in my shell,
That's where I belong.
Keep away from me,
I am like a toxin,
That can't be cured.
I'm just a failure as a girlfriend and a lover.
I was never this person before,
My past relationship destroyed who I once was.
I only wish I could find her,
So I can love myself and learn to love again.

Chérie Mar 2019

Sad and Alone

I'm sad and alone with no one here to comfort me,
I have no one in my life, with very little family and what seems like no friends at all.
I'm sad and alone with no one here to love me,
I have no one here but my boys who I know try there best for me.
I'm sad and alone with no one here to talk or cry with,
I have no one here but me to say you will make it through the day.
I'm sad and alone with no one here but me to convince myself to stay,
I have no one here only me to pick up the pieces of my broken heart.
I'm sad and alone with no one here to take away my pain,
I have no one here except me to say you need to be strong for your boys.
I'm sad and alone with no one here,
I am sad and alone.

Chérie Feb 2019

I'm Done!

My poetry ***** and I just can't write any more.
My minds just a blank and when I do write, it's no good.
This is the last horrible poem I'm ever going to write, I'm done!