You said you don't need love anymore
But hey, I need you
When you said that, I fell down on the ground in pain
It was killing me to hear that  
The tears wouldn't leave my eyes  
Even after a year, then a year after that  
I lied and kept it all inside
Then I took a shower that night
Skipping lunch for two days
I answered questions just with "okay"s or "yeah"s
So much blood was shed
Leaving my thighs dark red
I said I was happy without you
I wish that was the reason why

A year ago
We held hands
All along
You despised
Everything
I did for you  
And everything    
I didn't do  
Now we're trying to talk
To be in love with someone
We're not
Trying to talk again
To make things work

We both say
We've tried                            
But I don't think
We tried at all

The only thoughts to express
The emotions I have for me
Are not thought to exist
True as they should sound
Would you love me
If I said it out
Loud? I don't know.
Listen to me, would you ever understand what I'm trying to say without me having to say it?

Thinking 
As though
I have just dreamed
The depths of a great seem
But there's a strange black hole
That keeps trying to 
Keep me 
Inside 
It