since i’ve been back i have been writing less i have been enjoying my experiences- enjoying every day, enjoying the company this place brings me peace and love since i’ve been back i have been loving myself more and i have been writing less
i can feel it sinking in the dark cloud overhead that rains down on me with negativity it comes with thunder & lightening it feels like a weight that is holding me down
there is a pill that brings sleep to my eyes when i awake the anxiety is gone but the thing that made me anxious is still there it just cant get below my skin anymore
last night you tried to get under my skin again pushing, pulling, poking, prodding at me but last night i did not let you through instead i acknowledged your existence and did my best to carry on
your arms were wrapped around me like the sun envelopes the day with warmth and light when i told you how happy i was you replied, "you deserve all of the happiness" do you know that i am the happiest when i am enveloped in the warmth and light that is your love
you are the mosquito that bites you are the mosquito that remains unseen you are the mosquito and leaves me with itches & irritation you are the mosquito that flies away when you have finished taking my blood taking what you want
i feel guilty and uncomfortable. i don't remember everything that happened last night--if certain things were real or if i was dreaming. does he remember the same things i do? i keep wanting to apologize over and over again. last night was scary, but the thought losing him is even scarier.
if our love was a radio there would be static we are out of range your station is playing songs of joy my station is playing songs of countless emotions