there are so many crazy people out there
Never makes any sense how some people meet or even fall in love
"It just takes a second for my world to come crumbling down"
or to even lift it up
either way it can be changed in less than what i thought
If a small rock was in the middle of the ocean for example
I thought i was the ocean always moving around the small rock
but now i am the rock easily moved by the earth beneath my feet
crazzzyyy
but heyyyyy

because life is just a serious pain in the ***.
i drink up sarcasm as if it were medicine
medicine for every pain that i have ever been caused
by every incoherent fraction of a human
a fractured mirror image of every broken promise
seriously kiss my ***

They used to sing my every word and dance my every rythm
They used to laugh and even cry with me in times of anguish
They used to lift me up and lighten my soul with the words that could put a pigeon-toed bird to flight so how?
How is it now that they betray with the venom that drips from there tounge.
With the smoothness of a defiled *****
but the clearness of the cleanest drinking water
Your tounge was one of the few that spoke a jaded fairytale of a lie
The eyes that used to hold me close in their gaze now
haunt me with a crooked coldness
the arms and embrace of warmth of all of you have turned into something
of a distant and taunting night mare
The truth has set you free. oh yes!
It has set you free to turn all my treasured moments into nothing but a clear and crumpled reflection of  hatred.

it takes way more effort to love then to hate
but ever since u left all i can see to feel is bitter
bitter for so many reasons
that make no sense to anyone but my self
all i can seem is to write tragedy after tragedy
does it make me happy? no it makes me feel alive
kind of like a mere smile from those precious lips i once thought would never become a curse
your soft pale skin now reminds me of thorns instead of daffodils in the spring time
everything i meant u turned into nothing in the blink of an eye
tell me i am dreaming
i almost get a kick out of hating u
all u did was force me to spill out all these forbidden emotions
i swore i never would
but i did
worst mistake i got the raw end of every deal
***** it all
this was all i twisted dream i would love to wake up from this twisted nightmare called fate

the heart wants what it wants
no statement could be more crucially true
i hate the statements because it gives my head 0 control
like i am ******* floating and i don't even get a freaking chance to look at the ground
how will i know if my feet touch
they won't
they never will
someone just tell me
please just tell me
i am trapped
why are the skies so sad and the seas in my soul so angry
what can i do to make my self smile again

do you know...
how hard it is to want some one u can't have
to want to spend eternity with them when u can't even get three seconds alone
to want so bad to look at them but every time u do u it takes everything inside of u not to burst into tears
All you wanted was a happy ending
but u get this sad excuse of an ending before it even began
thats the worst feeling to fall into this deep abyss of hell and pain  before u even got a chance to love her
to hold her in your arms