infest my body
force me to hate myself
stop me from getting close
make me forever uncomfortable

this is what he has done
this is what he wanted

he did it because he could
I deserve no less
my body is nothing
to him or to me
my heart is irrelevant
and my soul is a tip

he didn't ask for
my permission
he knew
he could ruin me
I didn't have
a single clue

existence is beyond any explanation
existence is you and me
we are here
along with the sky
and the animals
the animals in our minds,
in our hearts
our hearts beat like any others
and they scream
they scream for love
and for each other
they cry for ***
and for water
as our minds, they linger
slowly behind, afraid
of monsters

and we fall
then we drown
and we become
those monsters

I don't think
when I smile
I don't feel
when I cry
he doesn't know
when I try
he just knows
I exist

Where is a father
when there is
a helpless daughter?

Mr. Man tells me
I dress nicely
my smile is pure
my mind is busy
and my life,
my life is man-less

my love is nothing

place me in that chest
the old one downstairs
take out my hairs
one by one
stroke my nose
send those letters
to the young girl
who we used to love
don't ask any questions
I have been touched
and we can't take that back
I am *****
and I cannot feel you
he made me scream
I can't scream anymore
lock me away
close my eyes
find yourself a friend
I am not she
you must leave now
we will never
be strong enough
to save this soul

I feel that to write
I cannot go on
For now, my time, I do not know
I could be gone
Or I could be home
A speech of such loss
Of words, of lust
It is lost, absent for good
A paperweight on your coffee table
The letters on my wall
I feel that to speak
I cannot, to you, anymore
Many more years from now
Has no meaning at all
For the moment, in my room
There are no more thoughts
For the day, it is over,
The evening will forever be

How to see sound. by Chloe
two times

is all it took

for one eye to tell the other

just go ahead and look.

stragglers, they could agree

how seriously difficult

it is to really see.

I went along, though,

and all for good

as what had appeared in front of me

just so beautifully stood.

a few heart beats went by

before I sensed

a large wave of intensity

flow right out my chest.

You know, when the sky rains and the drops hit the floor,

the ground that we walk on is dry no more.

when your eyes are shut because you do not want to see,

just keep them open

cure your curiosity.

Now, I can dream without sleeping

so you can sing with no voice

nobody will care what comes out

so long as it is all your choice.