I was never taught to be A father
As a child we played sports, army, and competed
so that we didn't get smeered by the queer.
I had a dad and a step dad but I didn't know either one very well.
They taught me to run and hide and hit and beat there problems (me)

I never looked up to anyone I knew a sports figure on the TV
doing what I wanted to do.
No clue or ambition to part knowledge to someone else I would've been ok.
But I met a girl who wanted to play house when it was time I gladly obligated
Myself and made her mine.
And inevitably it came and one day we had something else. Something. More something greater than ourselves combined.
And not knowing what the **** to do I had a son I had someone to look up to.
Give my life meaning and purpose where I had hid and shadowed away
All that disdain from my child hood days.
I learned how to be father while barely becoming a man and now that Ash has his brother Wesley I don't know why I got so lucky.
Me and the girl may not survive to much adult ******* can't run away from that or hide.
But as strong as I have had to become I weaken with there resolve and marvel at how they are to become.
They will be great and they will meet someone to love
I will smile because I know I gave that to them even when I felt like I had none.
I am a father, a dad, a man with two sons. I regret nothing that I did to make this path.

Sinning in a world that
let's it all get by
closed off when morals
ran dry.
Death all around celebrated
in streets
*****
Tortured
Cleaned
For the 24 hour cameras
I set up my living room staring into HD nirvana
moved away from the faces buried in blue
I give in to what
Wall Mart
Axe deodorant
Xbox
Tell me to do.
Sinning in a world that forgot how to care
shipping out immigrants
we watch our death on the air.

Take this gold
all away from me now
Planned for peace
settled for luxury and taxing

Gathered where we were when it all fell
waste what was taken
relying on the the mediocre
to sale ideas to the illiterate
The mass that shouts loudest shouts first

No one hears the back doors closing off the escape
Plausible
deniability

I don't need gold anymore

I need the papers properly signed and posted.
Stamped
Dated

I'll take much too much
feed what gold couldn't fill
take from you after you're
Dead and still

Ive let you in over and over
trusted in what was said
seeing as how I love you

Now I grow tired of it all
breaks my mind
from a sound sleep, I'll  never to get back

Trusted what you've said so many times
It nauseates me to know
I have done it again
Same tricks
Same lies
Same speech

Fallen for you and I know I always will
The deception will never cease
And I should be used to it by now

It is hard living with myself

I can't remember if I had *** last night
I'm in my under wear
and she.....well she is beside me.
I don't remember there being any
soft kisses or heart felt embrace.
I don't remember any demons taking over
and violating her face.
She sleeps soundly though and moans
When my **** brushes her thigh.
She lays her head upon my chest
and kisses me there.
I dare not wake her because she may remember
and out into the rain I go...
Sleep for now
Dream for later
She stirs, turns and makes herself comfortable.
And she sits her *** sweetly onto my **** growing
She wiggles against  and moans once more ...
A memory perhaps
But about last night I am not sure.

Devil down in the swamp
firing up a brew
gonna burn
as she goes down
gonna burn in you

That devil she snakes
her way around
snakes her way thru town
she ain't evil she's just a woman
That devil snakes around

One morning one good man
find himself slipping
no good come from it
now he's waiting
for a sip or two.

One good man woke up one morning
now devil done turned him around.

Oh that devil done snaked around
the last good man in town
coiled him under and made him
go down.
Oh that devil she took the last good man in town

But then again what a mighty sweet angel when she go down.

Sun is brightest in the day
when her eyes don't shine
gets darker and grey
because shes not mine
she tries but doesn't understand the
gravity she holds
smile across her lips
corrupts a mans soul

Oh but the way she loved
Oh but the way she loved

She's getting her way whether she wants it or not
Making men weak with the pout of her lips
Shes just the way she wants to be

Oh the way she loved
Oh the way she loved

She loved me more than could be said
Wrecked my heart without intent
Lying here mostly dead
Craving what I had
She can't
No I cant
She can't
Not like she did with me
Oh the way she loved me