I'm lonely
but not looking for pity
I'm down
but don't need to look up

Tomorrow I'll be happy
Tomorrow I'll be strong


I've given in on figuring which

Jealous of the rest of you
seemingly worry free.

Am I the only one

You were born and your father wept
begged the deity above all
to let you feel his love

On knees he bent and broke
for the smile that would come across
your face innocent and pure

Made you feel like a princess
around shambles
because he always wanted better for you

When time passed as uncontrollably as it does
he gave you distance and respected the change
As you became wise to being a woman.

Still loving and idolising
His laws became strict and confining
And you would rebel
For years that saw no end.

Love conquers us all
Makes us weak and trivial.

And now dear Mother
See it in your sons face
and let it remind you

There are no fathers made
Unless a mother loves us.

You are the smile
that make my lips
quiver
The tears I shed
just as I watch you
from across the room.
My voice is in you
and I will command you
to echo it with..

Love
Kindness
Truth
Understanding

Just as I gave you
Your life
Mine grows within you.
You will be forever
My best friend
My Champion

Do not dwell on mistakes
I have made
forge your own
And know my sons
Your mistakes have no consequences
On the true love of your mother

It aint the same everwhere
I know it took a man
To stand and stare
Down them gallows
In Zebullon county square

Lil Mae
age of 21  
saw her man with another
moaned
"I'm gonna make you pay"

now  some of you wanna say

"Lil Mae get a gun make that man pay"
To mad to see
to hurt to care
Lil Mae stormed her way down to
Zebullon county square.

Bobby Lee wasn't  a simple man
to proud to be dumb
could read and write
Yet he never let no one know

Bobby Lee workin late
bumped into a drunk,
back on that old alley

Bobby Lee took a beating by four whites
the blood poured out into the streetlight

Soon enough the sheriff came a runnin
"whats the matter here!!"
white men shouted
"the boy had it coming, he took my money
try to **** me, sheriff I had to do something!!"

12 days later 12 men had a shine
sentenced ***** Lee to hang
Saturday morning half past nine
sun be coming up behind him
so his shadow
would grow tall on that line.

Sun rose cool that day
Folks lined up to watch Ol
Bobby Lee pay.

Soon they all began to scatter
preacher man shouted
'"whats a matta"
Lil Mae had come with blade readied
for her last stand

"Preacher man" Lil Mae shouted
"you goin to hell, no doubt about it"
"Im gonna send you there by my hand."
silver plated blade glistened in the sky

"lord my soul , dont let me die!"

Blood sank  from the preachers throat
Lil Mae watched  til his last choke

Crowd screamed "NO!!" but it fell on Gods deaf ears

"Lil Mae" came her mans voice
"why you do it?"
She reckoned "I had no choice"
"I love you but you put me to it.
you and this preacher man ripped me apart."
Lil Mae's man stood in the middle of the square
tears draining life, sobs stealing air......

Bobby Lee innocent as he was
unwrapped his noose
and slowly walked away

Lil Mae stood her ground on them gallows
but it gave way
half pass nine
she fell in line
the sun made her shadow tall
dead before her body
went through the gallows fall

we abide and
appease
associate and
disease
one another
for our greed

fail or win
take what you can
while its out
run don't stop

It cuts us up
dissected and figured out
The road cuts you down

when you've let love slow you down

Answering prayers
is easier than sticking
it out
Blessed be thee
and on the run
to the next sucker who'll
Fall
flat
short
pancaked
Face down in his own
grovelling

Keep the **** to yourself
If AIDS, genocide, starvation
never got his attention
The girl of your dreams
never will matter.

I ran into an old friend
styled brunette hair
fire engine red lipstick
rose blouse open to
possibilities
white capris and.....
flip flops

we hugged and exchanged
pleasantries
caught up with another
we walked away.

no second glances
no look back at a
shaking ***

she used to *******
so....
no goodbye kisses either
It had been two years
since I had seen her

It was a cool southern morning
The afternoon would be sweltering