CH - Hello Poetry

CH Feb 2014

intoxicated bodies
leads to confessions of affection
confessions to be ignored when guilt takes over
confessions which we swear not be true
that our hearts beat strongly for each other
that is a truth - a reality which cannot be changed

or can it?

“practice makes perfect” you say
and I think I understand
because my heart is broken

*and I have to practice

CH Feb 2014

memories

I keep forgetting how striking you are
How charming and stunning you are

I forget because I tell myself not to look at you
I forget because I don’t want to be longing for -

Your hands around my waist
Your laugh which overshadows my every thought

Your strong arms which once held me tight
Your broad shoulders which sheltered me into reassurance

I say that I keep forgetting,
But I always remember,
The second you take a look in my direction

Even for just a second
I remember it *all

CH Feb 2014

expose

Sunlight, moonlight
Shine bright

Unravel me here
Exhibit my shattered heart

Let the world look into
My aching soul

And reveal my hidden art
Underneath my sleeves

Use your luminosity to mirror
The darkness of my psyche
Onto the ground

Where it belongs

CH Feb 2014

fiend

a devil is hidden inside my chest,
concealed behind my ribs I have imprisoned it
as it rages and as it screams
it seeks to harm me
so I scream back

but I am simply human
and my voice will become raw
as the devil continues to screech
and sometimes my voice vanishes
and when my ribs expand as I breathe
all hell breaks lose

my devil is out
and I have become imprisoned

CH Feb 2014

mind's eye

when he kissed me, I thought of you
and when he looked me in the eyes, he reminded me of you
and when he smiled at me, I hoped that it was you
and for some reason I dare not think of
I wanted him even more

because you are the best I never had

CH Feb 2014

fatigue

I am tired of...

shaking hands,
tired eyes,
pale cheeks,
smileless lips,
stinging lungs,
fragile legs,

a mind without peace
and a heavy heart

I am so indefinitely,
so infernally and entirely

tired

CH Feb 2014

consuming

I keep thinking,
that I can survive without you
but then two days go by
and you still consume my mind
but I do not consume yours
I dare not think of it

but each time you write me
you lure me with lovely words
and I feel that you might
just a little bit
think of me too

but I know
that it is merely who you are,
the incredible person that you are
who says these alluring words

and that it has nothing to do with me