Too little people
Roam the land
Questioning things
That most defend

Hang the gallows
Distort the truth
Extort the money
Corrupt the youth

Most ignore it
As false prophets do
The communication
Of ignorant fools

Among the few
Who oppose the many
We wonder who’s left
Or even if any

We continue to try
Yet we know it’s too late
Now and forever
All for the state

When dreams feel more real than life itself
You know you’re living a nightmare

I couldn’t tell you
What is real

I Board up the windows
So I can be free
I can’t tell you what time
‘Cause TV’s the only light I’ll ever see

Dopamine from endless dreams
No life, no soul, no way to leave
It’s almost like I don’t wanna breathe

…

Hanging from the chandelier
The noose and I are getting near
I’m fading out, I cannot hear
I cannot tell you if I’m here

Why must I live through medication?
Why can’t I live with my temptation?
To give up on prescription drugs
And live life as it was

Why can’t I find a normal way
To get through the day
Without draining away
In insufferable pain?

Why can’t I eat like I used to?
When I wanted to
Just looking at food
Makes me want to hurl

Wasting away to get through the day
It’s nothing but pain, just to stay sane
I don’t want to die old and afraid
Just let me be me and make me insane

Let me pretend
That you are my friend
Let me believe
That you would have grieved
‘Cause when I am dead
There is no pretend
And there will be no end

You don’t exist
It’s all in my head
But when I am with you
We can pretend

Leave me be
He can’t hurt me
There’s nothing you can do
To follow through
‘Cause he’ll never leave me
So what if I have no one true

I don’t exist
It’s all in your head
But when you are with me
You are my friend

Come with me
Hide the truth
It’s time for you
To go…

I evermore know now
That Christ’s wounds will suffice
I shall wound myself no further
For He bore them all for me

A lifetime of sin contrived
Yet He has payed the price
I sing you now a requiem
For a suicide that will never be

I was happier
Sometime in the past
And now I can’t remember
They never seem to last

I got myself a razor
Got myself a laugh
I’ve got a sense of mania
And I’ll treat it like a gaff

I cut into my soul
I do it every day
I wish it hurt more often
It’s my favorite escape

Relief is what I’m after
From all the pain before it
And all the pain thereafter

They’ll put you in a cage
With butterfly bandaids
You can try to escape
But with broken wings you’ll stay

They’ll hold you there until you’re better
If you get worse they’ll restrain you further
None of this made sense with time
I’m no one’s threat but mine

With each turn of the page
It’ll make you enraged
You can try to stay sane
But with books and poems you’ll hate

They’ll hold you there until you’re better
If you get worse they’ll restrain you further
None of this made sense with time
I’m no one’s threat but mine

The world is just a bigger cage
With people just as bad and deranged
I cannot ever seem to escape
With all of my actions caught on tape

As your bandaids fall
And as time seems to stop
You realize you’re never free
Until you’re dead and deceased

I never hurt anybody else
I never hurt a soul
I never hurt the ones I loved
The ones that never learned to love me