I said it wouldn't matter
I said I wouldn't care
You with everyone else
Always remaining without me

Then you opened your mouth
Things were said
Illusions were made
You made loose speech and thought

I see you prance on their hearts
Intentions blind to the pain you cause
Recycling your charms for all of them
I watched your careless game

I am still free of you
I am burdened with you
Another man I cannot trust
Another lie that I saw as a truth

While I thank you for opening a door
For showing me to open up
I loathe you for showing me I was right
That while I can be open I can never trust

In a world where
All I ever do is feel
All I ever do is listen

Will I know a world where
I am sometimes felt
I am sometimes heard

I feel like I did before the damage
Before my world was broken
Before these walls were built

Feel proud
This girl built her own tower
You made her strong enough to build her own ladder
Saved her without patronizing her with rescue

I feel as though this heart can be stitched together again
Unless all this euphoria is a joke to lure me in

All these feelings
All these thoughts
Heart is racing all the time
Hands jittery from your touch

I wait like a book for you open my pages
Every detail open to you
Can't bare to share my past with those I love
You, however, I like and I am dying to share it all with

I want you to know that I have been down
Want you to know you showed me that I could stand up

Electricity
Tingly fires inside
Pulling me to you
My will irrelevant

Starting in my fingertips
Sneaking a reason to touch your hand
Zinging into the back of my hand
Your response burning insecurities

My hands pleasantly ache with light
A light my heart burns with
Something I can't imagine
Something I have missed

I know this is a wrong turn
I know that you're bad news
My head tells me to care
My heart says that I don't

You know how to make me smile
Slowly starting to understand
I'm not so misunderstood
Just largely undiscovered

There's a thunder storm out there
As the lightening strikes I smile
Head leant on the window I can only say
"The speed with which you hit the sky,
Is the speed my heart beats around this guy."

For the first time
the flaws are fine

I can't justify them to my likes
I can't agree with why they exist
They are part of you currently
Currently I'm wanting to be part of you

I'm going to try and fix you up
Some flaws are ment to fade
But some of them I love
More than the ones I hate

False laughter inspiring real joy to burst from your lips
Movement lacking grace but never happiness
Motivations that are selfish but beautiful
The way you can't stop

Not as perfect as first thought
Effects still producing affection
Still drawn as moth to flame
Still glad to feel without shame

Touching your hand was electricity
Haven't thought straight since
Buzzing synapse to synapse
Still made of electric fire

I know that you're wrong for me right now
I'll stick around with patience for tomorrow
The one whose always taking your bait
Though remaining the one you never catch

I cannot truly express my gratitude
You've shown me a side of myself
Now I can see the full reflection
Instead of staring into a broken mirror

Happiness that's never fleeting
Always able to smile
As long as I can remember
How you make me look at life

I will wait at home
Wait for you to live your lessons
When you learn to get along
We'll learn to get along

The monster inside me is ever alive
Chancing to come out and play
Ever prepared to play with sin
Ever prepared to win

Cages and screams
Hopes and dreams of better days
Music brings out my emotions
In fits of thought I am never safe

Eyes blurred with its haze
No longer myself
The girl you see now something darker
Perfectly tempting and dangerous

Only visible in the mischievous glint of the eye
The smirk of a killer becoming too effortless
Begging for someone to save me
Screaming to have control

It loathes your effect on me
You spark one dead flames
Making me want to change
Feeling its presence less around you

It hates that you can't see it within me
Your habit to only see the good
Your inability to catch me on a bad day
Manipulate diffused at your feet

I crave to be near you
Yearn for the wide eyed way I feel
The way the sun set high
The way the shadows grow short

Satisfied with what I already have
Any vicinity will satisfy my heart
Feeling this way is the worth
Showing my demons defeat

Look at me and break my shell
I've sat here and waited
For your eyes

With eyes that see past my own
Through the window they become
Into my heart and it's pain
You can hear these muted tears

For all my truths lay behind these walls
Behind the fortress I've built
My past keeps me from trusting
Anything that shines

I have a love for the broken
I know they would never brake another
I know that they are safe
I know they are dependent like me

With you it's like a system shock
You're one giant risk that my mind isn't willing to insure
My heart is leaping and keeping time to a new rhythm
No longer depressed but pleased

You see me in a way I've wanted to see myself
I envy you for that
I want you for that