i used to be filled with so much envy
in some ways, i still am
i would wish to be anyone but me
in some ways, i still do
but i've realized that the person you so achingly want to be just like
is actually wishing so badly to like someone else,
and so on
i've realized we all spend so much energy yearning for the things we are not instead of appreciating the things we already are
there's nothing wrong with wanting to be a better person,
but you cannot be a better person until you learn to love what you are instead of loving what you are not