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241 · May 2017
Perfection
cass May 2017
The colors on his canvas were as bright as his mind. He had paint on his shirt front and bed head. He was adorable in the way he rolled his Rs and the way he'd stick his tounge to the top of his mouth after a bowl of ice cream. He was and is perfection.
240 · Apr 2017
My all
cass Apr 2017
When the world seems to fall
I remember you
And I stand tall
For you are my reason
You are my all
240 · Mar 2017
Ends have beginnings too.
cass Mar 2017
I remember the first time you said you loved me.
I remember.
I held to it.
I felt the world tip and sway when you lips finished moving.
You said it.
I remember the first time you told me I was it.
I was the one.
I remember.
It felt as though we were living in sensational color.
We lived for each other.
Your exhale was my inhale.
We held each other like mothers held their babies.
Every moment was spent reveling in new things we had to show each other.
I gave you the parts of me no one had ever seen,
and in return you did the same.
Tears fell from your eyes, I kept every one
every one.
But it ended.
And in some way it ended me too.
239 · May 2017
Hey
cass May 2017
Hey
I sometimes think I am not my flaws, the dirt underneath my nails, my latest diet. I am more than that. Sometimes it's all I am. I am my flaws, the dirt underneath my nails, my latest diet, and so much more. I am also quiet baths, a perfect spotify playlist, a cotton candy sunset, a tearstained pillowcase, a upper lip that touches my nose constantly smudging my lipstick. I am me and it's wonderful.
239 · Nov 2016
Finally
cass Nov 2016
I opened up parts of myself to you and finally they healed like they were supposed to.
234 · Nov 2016
Paint
cass Nov 2016
Leave a canvas for me
dear love
to paint
Your paint coated fingers will caress my cheek
And I will cover you in
cangiante strokes of yellow and red
I will fill every part of it
with the story us
232 · Jul 2018
Summer
cass Jul 2018
In the nights when the stars come
And heat from the sun is almost gone
You and I go for a walk
The world around us falls fast asleep
But we are content
in eachothers company
The moon high above seems to whisper
kiss her kiss her
And so you do
231 · May 2017
Untitled
cass May 2017
She wanted to much,
but when was that ever wrong?
cass Apr 2017
I am a woman, yet I am still growing.
Filling into spaces.
growing out of shoes and people.
228 · Jul 2017
Still here
cass Jul 2017
Weird things that remind me of you
Beef jerky
Long drives on highways
Clamchowder
Guitar strings
And all at once
I'm enveloped with you
Every time
The smell of you
The way you laugh
Every time
And I smile because I know you will always be there, but its ok because I know I will always be there too.
222 · Apr 2017
Untitled
cass Apr 2017
The contrast of space and time and light and dark will forever sting, the dark will forever carry dark foreboding things, but I never fear the dark. I brought a flashlight.
218 · Jul 2016
Comfort
cass Jul 2016
I find comfort in my body
I grew with it since before my beginning
Each heartbeat I grow stronger
Get bigger
Love longer
My body is a comfort
Each freckle
Each scar
Tells of a story
Mine
Loving myself is not vain, it is wonderful.
216 · Jan 2018
Angel
cass Jan 2018
In a hush of whispered lips you told me of how he hurt you.
All I could say then was how I wished I could take your pain away.
But now I see you shining in the dark, illuminating the path for me to walk and I am grateful I am not alone.
214 · Oct 2017
Notions of the heart
cass Oct 2017
There are moments you wait for
Where life hands you these seconds, which turn into incredibly wonderful every nerve exposed minutes. Creating lifetimes of moments.
The fireworks in your chest kinds of moments.
Standing under cathedral paintings in Rome and wondering how someone human made something so unearthly and raw kind of moments.
We feel.
We create.
We inspire love.
So, why can't I tell you that you make me feel as though I'm lying under the Tuscan sun with sand in every fingertip? I smile like the Mona Lisa every time your hand touches mine.
I feel.
I create.
I love.
Do you?
212 · Jun 2017
Sunrise
cass Jun 2017
I just wanted to say that everything's ok.
It gets better.
One step at a time,
one day at a time it gets better. Smiles last longer.
Relief comes.
It's worth it,
hold on.
Don't give up.
The sun rises.
You can try again.
210 · Apr 2017
"Ok."
cass Apr 2017
"You ok?"
You asked as your fingers traced the parts of me I was scared of.
Nodding I closed my eyes and tried to think of anything else but the red beanbag beneath me and the dark hair in my hands.
Scary write, scary feelings.
210 · Apr 2017
My brother and I
cass Apr 2017
When I go walking
he is beside me.
When I say I've got it
he really has.
Because he knows me
and because he knows me
he understands.
209 · Oct 2016
you
cass Oct 2016
you
Scoop me up and out
leave me with nothing but the pale silhouette of touch
All I want is to speak with you
understand your mind
carry your hand inside mine
208 · Oct 2017
The shakes
cass Oct 2017
It's in the shake of my hands
In the tangle of fingers
It's the smudged mascara under my eyes
It's there
207 · Jan 2018
Happy
cass Jan 2018
Happy
             thoughts
                           slide
                                      happily
                                                down
                                                        the
                                                                tips
                                                   of my
                                    eyelashes
                       and tougue.
          Look at me.
                     I am glad to be here
Look at me.
206 · Nov 2017
Closure
cass Nov 2017
I remember thinking I needed you to supply the thread to close up my bleeding heart. I thought I needed your apology, listing the ways you broke me.  
I don't.
I gave you my best and that enough is closure.
205 · Dec 2016
Whole
cass Dec 2016
Mosaics, a combination of elememts forming a less coherent whole. That's what we are.
203 · Jun 2017
Awake
cass Jun 2017
It's good to have mornings back again.
It doesn't hurt to get up anymore
203 · Nov 2017
Untitled
cass Nov 2017
I need to become what I need
so I quit looking for it in the arms of the wrong men
203 · Mar 2017
change
cass Mar 2017
I find it hard to believe you can fill yourself up to the brim, and empty it out to be the same again.
I'm still falling out of love with you. Will I ever be the same again?
202 · Nov 2017
Jesus Christ
cass Nov 2017
In you I find shelter
In you I found love
In you I seek faith
For you I live
Your love so deep is washing over me.
202 · Jan 2018
Alive
cass Jan 2018
Don't you worry
Each beat in my chest reminds me how lucky I am to be one second wiser, one inhale kinder, one touch closer to good dreams.
I know how lucky I am.
Sometimes it hurts a little, and that's ok.
197 · Feb 2017
Sorry
cass Feb 2017
If there was something that would tell me how to open my mouth and make you tremble, I would speak and maybe you would listen. For some reason a bucket full of wonderful thoghts gets stopped up in my brain and all that comes out is sorry. I am full of beautiful things, but all that is pulled from me when your around is how you make me feel like I'm the one who messed up.
Fathers forgetting to fufill their jobs
197 · Nov 2017
Numb
cass Nov 2017
I can't feel my fingers, or yours as they touch my neck.
I can't see your mouth opening to encompass skin.
I feel nothing.
I feel nothing.
I feel nothing.
I am nothing.
I am nothing.
I am nothing.
194 · Nov 2016
Small things
cass Nov 2016
I want you to grow your hair out. The halo of tiny curls that have begun to tangle and coil around your ears make it impossible for my mind to focus on anything but running my fingers through them.
191 · Jun 2016
Take that
cass Jun 2016
To tell you the truth
I only really cared about you
after you left
190 · Aug 2017
Poetry
cass Aug 2017
The way your smile bends
That's poetry
Lazy circles of half asleep fingers
A hazy look
That's poetry
182 · Apr 2017
Untitled
cass Apr 2017
She was filled with so much.
So much love.
So much kindness.
She kept pouring into people,
and the waterfall inside her cried.
179 · Feb 2017
Clean
cass Feb 2017
People receive sober chips for staying clean for 24 hours
I've been clean from you for over 72 hours and all I have is a half empty jar of kisses that remind me of you
179 · Apr 2017
Untitled
cass Apr 2017
How do you capture happiness?
Is it in cups of coffee or hot chocolate?
Is it in photos of grins spread so wide they fill the 3x5?
How do you capture love?
Is it in their smile?
Is it in their arms?
How do you capture peace?
In the moments so still the oxygen in your chest sounds like a dragon?
In the rain?
----------------------------------------------
How do I capture happiness?
In writing.
In my smile (though its been a while since I've seen it).
How do I capture love?
In books.
In the smiles of friends.
How do I capture peace?
I don't know, could you show me?
179 · Mar 2017
Potential
cass Mar 2017
Remember when we were kids, and our future careers weren't limited to the two page career option list?
I remember.
We were unlimited potential then.
You and I were just phrases on a chalk board.
But.....
for some reason the dream died.
We got old.
We forgot.
But I,
I still remember.
I'm holding on.
I will not loose the child in me again.
She is unlimited potential.
I will keep her close.
177 · Sep 2017
Wiser
cass Sep 2017
Time is the best teacher.
So in every moment, I'm evolving, just like you.
cass Aug 2017
She wasnt the girl who you fell in love with, she was the girl you never had to fall in love with, she was just there one day, and there she stayed.  To you she looked a little different, laughed a little different, smiled a little diffrent, but for some reason you liked the way she danced to John Mayer at 4 pm in the living room. You loved that she was diffrent. You loved that the stars above her bed were the only thing that could soothe her. Sock sliding across her linoleum floor was your favorite sport to play. You Could survive without her, but you didn't want too.
173 · Aug 2017
Untitled
cass Aug 2017
It isn't easy
to become something new
It isn't easy
Just like new babe's we have to discover something new about the world and ourselves.
171 · Jul 2017
Untitled
cass Jul 2017
The faces of all those who have touched me in some way,
flicker being me like ghosts.
"Fate."
I say.
Is what keeps them here.
"Will we meet again?"
Oh, I hope so.
I hope so.
162 · Jun 2018
Untitled
cass Jun 2018
It seems as though I'm at a crossroads
I do not know yet which way I'll go
Each place seems foggy
Its path unknown
I wish I had the eyes
To see the others end
But for now I guess ill wait
At the crossroads
157 · Feb 2017
Untitled
cass Feb 2017
And that's when the peace came
After the storm
All she had left to do was pick up the pieces
Rearrange them and make her heart  home again
151 · Dec 2017
Untitled
cass Dec 2017
I wanna be the thoughts in your head.
Is that selfish?
147 · Mar 2017
Untitled
cass Mar 2017
So I will write like I promised you. I will let every memory run on the page leaving inky memories
of us
of me
of someone new.
138 · Jul 2019
Untitled
cass Jul 2019
I should have left
when you told me I was nothing
to sensitive
When you only wanted me
without my clothing
Should have known
When you twisted my words
To make me feel as if I were to blame
Gaslighting and grooming me for your own
eating my soul
Touching my skin
Making me feel so ******* alone
I hated myself every minute
But still couldn’t pull my hands away
Skin and body and bone
I was yours
I knew you were wrong
Yet still I knocked
Every time I heard your voice
Every time your hand manipulated mine
I broke like glass
Each shattered shard
embedding into my growing places
Making even breathing backbreaking
When I stopped going to classes
Stopped talking to friends
stopped eating
I should have understood
The fog lifts slowly, and when I saw the light I wept
135 · Oct 2017
Untitled
cass Oct 2017
Late at night I have theses thoughts
I dream of you and your tan sheets
When the anxiety and dizzieness leave
I drown in you
My heart is in my stomach
How am I to move it?
133 · Jan 2017
Untitled
cass Jan 2017
The years you wear settle easily on your face, but wrinkle your soul
124 · Nov 2021
Birthdays and funerals
cass Nov 2021
Happy birthday.
I hum under my breath the tune.
What are you doing?
How are you feeling?
Happy birthday.
You are the same age as me.
I try to be inspired.
I try hard to remember all the memories I’ve had with you.
What did I do when I turned 23?
Do you fly around this place?
Could I spend just five more minutes talking to you?
We could talk about 23 years we’ve spent here on this rock in space.
Happy birthday.
Words get tangled up and I can’t continue.
I can’t help but think, are you warm?
I keep thinking you’re in another room.
Happy birthday.
I’m not sure how to get this message to you.
Is there an answering machine in heaven?
Happy birthday.
cass Jan 2021
Maybe we met in a past life
The only way I could feel this way
Our souls had to be intwined for what feels like eons
Twisting and kissing you and me
And I’m convinced
Whether my face was this or another’s
You would find me again
And again
Poetry falls out of me when thinking of you
108 · Sep 2020
Depending on stars
cass Sep 2020
Today and most days I feel as though I want to fuse myself to you.
I desire to entangle myself in a passion so divine it’s above our power.
I want to pledge myself to you under an old tree your father planted, and become a bonded two.
Say our vows beside the flowers you grew up next too.
I want you besides me forever, I pray you want this too.
Oh please I hope you do, for my deepest wish I’ll depend upon the stars.
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