Ewww
Look at you
You disgusting little girl
Your hair’s a mess
Greasy; pimply; ugly
Teeth not white enough
Eyebrows too thin
Makeup done wrong
Just give up already
Walk to the mirror, tubby
Your thighs too large
Your arms flabby
They say your skinny
Who believes them?
You don’t eat some days
You say you’re not hungry
Plus, it’s too “mainstream”
You love food
That’s your problem
Think back on today *****
You yell at them
You think your life is so hard
You make theirs miserable
Ruin what little happiness they have
Worst sister ever
Why should they ever love you?
You don’t even know what love is!
You think you do
You don’t

You ruined another friendship
You thought you were in love. Ha!
You ruin everything
You’ve ruined yourself
Arms out
Wrists up
Examine the scars
Anger and hurt
Permanently displayed
Scars; burns; signs
The world can see
Just another ******* statistic
You like that, hipster?
Didn’t think so

Oh the labels
Do you want to be classified?
Hipster; depressed; hippie; cutter
How do those even go together?
You confuse people
You don’t even know what you are
What you want
What you want to be
You wear your heart on your sleeve
You dress like a freak
Outrageous clothes
Stupid hair
Trying to make an impression?
Make people remember you?
It’s working
And not in a good way

Are you crying?
Wipe the tears from your eyes, you baby
You cry over everything
The last 48 hours
And yet you smile
You disgust me
You hide it
All too well
Are you faking the tears for attention?
Or are you just plain manipulative?
Manipulative of yourself
Your thoughts; feelings
Disgusting

Oh, stop crying over him!
It’s your fault
Remember?
You broke his heart
Like a twig
The day you broke up with him
You gave up
You quitter
You were scared of his love
Scared of your feelings
They weren’t perfect
So you ran
You’re so messed up
You ruin the good things
The ONLY good things you have
Do you think he’ll want you back?

Then another
He was a great friend
You were scared of him
Of the things that made him him
You cancelled
Again
Lies and blames followed
Mad at each other
You said good bye
And because you’re a stubborn ***
Don’t apologize
Erase him from your memories
Cry over what you had
And lost
You ******* baby

Go “escape”
You dreamer
Escape your reality
Dream big
Then give up
You can’t make it
Isn’t that what you always do?
Blame him; I see
It’s not his fault
You just can’t remember
You have no motivation
No goals
You quit too early
I can’t stand to look at you
You disgust me completely
You’re the leftovers
The flaws no one had room for
ALL wrapped up in you instead
You want to be too many things
Everything you’re not
Can’t just be happy, can you?
You want to be the good girl
Want approval
You want to be the bad girl
Drinking
Smoking
*******
You want to be crazy
Not a care in the world
You want acceptance
You don’t even know
You’re greedy
Jealous
Foolish
You clown
Stop embarrassing yourself
Don’t be proud
It’s not nearly good enough
Stop trying
Maybe one day you’ll get it
We hate you
We all secretly hate
But we hide it because we’re good people
There you go
Just go cry sweetie
Act like everything’s ok
You fake
You poser
You loathful creature
I’d hate to be you
Oh, wait
I am...

She does it to him, he does it to her
It was obvious they would both end up hurt
She hates the things that he does
He doesn't realize what she gives up
Constantly worrying; Never trusting; It always ends in pain
Messing with each other's head, like it's some sort of game
He tells me that he wants to die,
She sits in her room and cries
But neither one is strong enough
Neither one has the guts
To do the thing that hurts the most
But in the end, will be best for both.
They drag us in, make us choose sides
And secretly we try to hide
We don't want to get involved
We've seen the pain that we've caused
Stand up, grow up, get some *****
Tell her you're through with it all
Tell him you're done with his lies
And all the things he tries to hide
You can't hurt yourself to save that one
Your time together will soon be done
You can't always make it work
Sometimes you just end up hurt

Arms out
Wrists up
See the scars
Burns and cuts
Examine the marks
The world can see
From losing my fight
With the enemy
You joke around
Point at the burns
Laughing only
Makes things worse
Everything temporary
Nothing Permanent
Our hearts set free
Just to get hurt
My soul cries out
I cannot live
Trapped inside
This fragile skin
If it breaks
It be my time
For I am not afraid to die

I sit in the corner of my room.
Holding my knees; Rocking back and forth.
I feel alone.
I am alone.

I hold the razor in my hand.
Remembering my promise to never do it.
To never see my blood.

But my life crashes around me.
No one understands me.
No one wants to understand me.

I don't want to go on living a lie.
I want to be happy and free.
I will never be free if I start.
I won't be able to stop
I've got to take control over my life
Be strong.

I close my eyes and the monsters surround me
They come at me,Their claws grab at my throat
I'm terrified but have nowhere to run to
No one to run to
No reason to go on

I want to stay here forever
Rotting away with the spiders
The dust covering my brittle lashes

Here, there is no one to judge me
Or tell me to change
I can hurt no one
Not dragging anyone's life down with me in it

I cry out, fearful of what I have become
I want to go back
But the past is too far gone
I sit here alone
Thinking
Making decisions
Until I run out of time

There are monsters within me
And I would never tell
But they have been sent here
from the depths of hell
We have them inside
Though we won't admit it
We each keep it as
A personal secret
We hide them deep down
We won't let them show
But they rage and run lose
Once we let them go

Slowly I've done it
I've let down my guard
Now they're out to get me
And to me cause harm
They taunt and they torment
In every which way
They laugh at the things
That I do and I say

They tell me to hate
And I want to agree
Even though it is love
That comes easily for me
I think about blood
Others or mine
Darkness and anger
Are what fill my mind

They lurk in the shadows
I can't get away
Not even in
The brightness of day
I fear for myself
And what I become
I wont like myself
When all this is done
I cry out each night
Feeling alone
Wishing that all of this pain
Could be done
But you see me happy
I seem normal to you
Cuz it's the smile on my face
That disguises the truth

They say that monsters
Hide in your closet
But the scariest ones
Are the ones found inside us

Burned matches lay down next to you
The razor now in your hand
Your body is so shaky
That you can hardly stand
Your mind races with the memories
Of all that happened that day
You know that to now do this
Would be a big mistake
Bad habits; Things repeated
These patterns never die
You stand tall for the world
As the hurt fills you inside
You said you'd gotten over it
And you were or so we thought
But little did we know
The internal battle that you fought
You said you were disgusting
And that no one could want you
You thought that you were ugly
But it's us that know the truth
Drop the blade from your hands
Don't go back to those evil ways
It's the love of those around you
That will give you strength
Stand up tall and smile, girl
Show the world that you're a star
We know you're extra special
Because we can see the scars