A lonely soul; Abandoned young
Deserted by the ones he loved
Passed along; The odd one out
His bed each night, another couch
One single grandfather took him in
The only one that he called kin
He moved in; New kid in town
Soon got tangled with the wrong crowd
Drugs, Parties, Late night fights
*** and *****; Nothing was right
Out of control; The law cracked down
His new home-A lonely cell
Locked up, stripped down; His only friends
Cold floor and bars; Paper and Pen
His body trapped for his wrongs
His heart set free by his own songs
His poems, words, thoughts, and fears
Collected; Written; Throughout the years
When he was out, shared them to her
He took to her as his own mother
Good for so long; He tried so hard
Didn't want to go back behind bars
The drugs and *****; They took their toll
Was so high; Yet falling so low
They said he'd die if he didn't go cold
But his sin had too much a hold
Died in his sleep; Could have been saved
If only he'd lived another day
A beautiful soul; Sadly gone
Leaving a tender heart alone
Elderly soul; Alone at last
Ninety-three; His life's fading fast
His only tie to this cruel world
Was a young boy filled with hurt

The tattoos, piercings, and hideous scars
All that he acquired behind bars
Were on the outside; Nothing more
Than another note added to the score
It's not the parts, but the whole
Not the body; But his beautiful soul

Broken; Crashed
On the floor
My broken heart's
Been here before
A vicious cycle
Once Again
My heart crying
From so called friends
Like stepping stones
I'm the bridge between
Who they are
And what they seek
Here today
And gone tomorrow
My heart filled
With wretched sorrow
Broken glass
Spread on the floor
Let me roll
Around some more
For that hurts less
Than what you do
When you break
My heart in two

I thought we now
Just might be friends
But hope soon came crashing
To an end
You can find yourself
Some other honey
There's more to me
Than my body
I'm sick of the words
"I'm sorry. You're right."
Uttered from me
When we fight
Because I know for one
That you're wrong
And we've both known it
All along
I hate that look
You give me
When the tears are trailing
Down my cheeks
You want to help
But I'm sorry; You can't
Too much pain you've caused
In my past
I say three silly
Words to you
And most days you say
I love you too
But the only thing
That I should do
Is force myself
To get over you
We get so close
I fall again
But then you want
To meet my friend
You yell at me
I take it in
Why ruin it all?
I let you win
But we don't see things
Eye to eye
And that's where things begin
To go awry

Call me push over
I'm such a softy
I let people
Walk all over me
I love you so much
How can I not
Give you everything
I've got?
And that includes
My heart too
For I've given it
To all of you
Broken; Crashed
Here once more
How many times?
Tears on the floor
If I don't want to
Be here again
I should just give up
And not have friends.

I’m cold
I want to sit and cuddle with you
I’m tired
I want to sleep on your shoulder
I’m scared
I want your arms to protect me
I’m hurt
I want your love to comfort me
I’m happy
I want to share my joy with you
But I’m happy
It’s probably because of you
I’m sad
I want you to dry my tears
I’m bored
I want you to make life fun
I’m angry
I want you to be rational and take control
I feel alone
I want you by my side
I feel unloved
Your kiss tells me otherwise

Swimming in a sea of faces
Everyone different
Everyone the same
I look around
Invisible in the crowd
But I stand out
Not at the level of everyone else
Weighed down
By negative thoughts
And my own weight
Too good for these feelings
Yet never good enough
Run now
Run fast to the water's edge

Jump into the river
The murky waters
Cover my scars
Cover my marks
They delude the evils racing through my mind.
I feel lighter
Though I sink into the mud
Maybe it will swallow me
forever
Down to the depths of hell
Where I belong

***** now
Always have been
Forever will be
Climb out slowly now
The breeze chilling you to the bone
The sun warming my skin
Conflicted
Like I've always been


Mud caked between my toes
The physical representation of my ***** soul
and ***** thoughts
***** water down my wrists
Into my hands
Reality, like soap, slipping from my grasp
Reality, the only thing that can change me from myself
Climb from the muck
Like a demon from hell

Their laughter draws you in
Wishing you could just be like them
Stand on the water's edge
Should you jump?
Allow yourself to collapse
Into the clear
Friends
Floating above you
Reaching hands to pull you up
You stay under a little longer

It's nice down here.

I see you.
You sit there
I watch you shake your leg
It’s always been your habit
I think about how it used to bother me
It doesn’t anymore
Nothing about you bothers me anymore

I see you.
I see you working
Doing what you’re supposed to
I’m not. I’m watching you
Like you used to watch me
You thought I never knew
Silly boy

I see you
I see you smile at what you’re doing
I remember making you smile
Sometimes I still do
And if I’m lucky, you’ll laugh
Oh, your laugh.
The way you throw your head back and your eyes light up
It makes me smile when I hear it
It makes me smile when I think about it

I see you
I see you look up and look at me
I quickly look away
You laugh silently and turn back to your work

I see you
I close my eyes and you are there
I think back on all the good times we had… and still do
I think of the things you sacrificed for me
I think of the things I sacrificed for you
I think of all the things we lost because of foolish decisions we made… together
I think back to our first kiss
The first time I had ever kissed anyone… and I chose you
It was so perfect. So right

I open my eyes and look at you
I follow the outline of your lips
I want them now
I loved the way they kissed my forehead, our last time together
I miss it
I miss you.
Every time I say I love you, I mean it with every fiber of my being
But you don’t know
And you never will.
Even so, I love you.

I’m sorry for all I’ve done to you
And everything I’ve said
But I guessed I never realized I
Was messing with your head

So many lies, so many tears
So many wounds were made
From a person who was so loving
But has now been turned to hate

We met back in November
Both were speechless that first night
In our hearts, we both knew
It was “like at first sight”

But my parents didn’t like you
So we snuck around their rules
Then one day they ‘caught me’
And I felt like a fool.

It was months before we’d talk again
And months before I’d know
That my heart was feeling restless
And the signs began to show

You told me that you liked me,
Every single day
I was nervous, and was scared
And I never knew what to say

It’s been like this for months now
Our hearts nowhere near the same
I quickly became tired
Of this messed up little game

Last night I told you how I felt,
Or rather, how I did not
But I wasn’t really expecting
The reaction that I got

I’m sorry for hurting you but can you say it’s all my fault?
You know as well as I do
We can’t control our hearts

I’m sorry for how things went down
But I don’t regret the decision that I made
I didn’t want to lose you
But I guess we’ll go our separate ways