It's so easy to be an angry, emotional child
Dark thoughts filled inside you, running wild
Hating the world, hating yourself
Pushing good memories to the back of the shelf
Want to sink in the mud, and hide your face away
From the worried looks they give you every day
Some call you strong for surviving this long
But I think they might all be singing the wrong song
Anyone can sit there and be double sided
Be depressed in the dark, and in the light hide it
But the ones who are strongest are the ones who fight
Who refuse the demons, by day or by night
Our moods come and go, but they don't define us
It's more than just what we show to outsiders.

There it is again
That face; Those eyes; That smile; Those teeth
It shows up in my dreams
It follows and watches me
It will pop out at any moment

There it is again
That laugh
The one that haunts me
It sounds like a witch concocting her poison
It makes its presence known when I make a mistake
That hideous cackle
I think it laughs at my pain...and my fright

There it is again
Those hands
The ones that grab me and hold me back
The ones that pull my hair,
Caress my face like a toy
Those hands with scars and bruises
Cuts and blood cover them
The hands that hold the knife
I fear my blood is next

There it is again
It never leaves me
It haunts me in my sleep
It haunts me in the day
It loves to see me in pain
I cannot get away

There it is again
It will never leave

You tell me this is your last goodbye
And the tears begin to fill my eyes
The pen and paper, your only escape
From the dark world you encounter every day
You tell me about the things you do
And although I know not what you go through
It breaks my heart, and I die inside
Is this the only way that you survive?
I make you promises foolishly
And when I lay my head to sleep
Its YOU who haunts my thoughts and dreams
My ruined pillow soaked with tears
My heart racing with new fears
But not for me, for YOU my friend
The one who’s life should not yet end
My soul is screaming, hurting, crying
For the one that’s slowly dying
Too many dreams for us as friends
I’m not ready for this to end
How often do I say I love you?
You say you know, but I don’t think you do
You’re the one who’s made life bright
The northern star shining in the night
The rare beauty in a field of dirt
But also the one who’s been hurt


I think back to that rainy day
I played guitar and sat and sang
You smiled at me from over there
But inside was brimming with despair
I didn’t know the thoughts on your mind
I couldn’t make it better that time
But here, you’ve taken over my life
You’re in my thoughts from day to night
I wish there was something I could do
To make the whole world love you
To the one who makes life better
Here is your own love letter


This here is my final battle cry
For you alone, I’d give up my life
Don’t underestimate my love’s power
I cry for you this very hour
If you leave, I’ll miss you when you’re gone
PLEASE…don’t leave me here alone….

I look up and look at you,
out of the corner of my eyes.
Its easy just to watch you
and let the time fly by.
As I sit and watch you,
I think about the past.
I think about the thing we had,
and how I thought that it would last.
I thought that I was special
and meant so much to you.
Although you said you liked me,
your actions told the truth.
I gave you my something special,
and then you broke my heart.
Who knew that a boy like you,
would rip my world apart?
I regret giving up on you.
I guess I’ll always want you again.
Because your face always haunts me
when it pops up in my head.
So I sit her in class,
and watch everything you do.
I don’t think you’ll ever understand
how much I love you.

Skipping records; Deja Vu
I just can’t get over you
E’erone says I ought not to
Fall for you tricks again

My heart, by you, ‘s been broke before
My body shaking from the slammed door
Red blood, all mine, spilled on the floor
And will happen again

That silly word that was all mine
When heard it always filled my mind
And my soul with butterflies
Because I heard the passion in your voice

We played this game not long ago
You kissed my head and held me close
You mended me before I broke
From being intoxicated with you

Shaking in this desolit place
Vertical lines streaked down my face
My heart pounding, but I lost the race
The last time I trusted you

Skipping records; Deja Vu
I don’t like the things you do
My beating heart, you rip in two
And I’ll go back to you again

Skipping records; Deja Vu
I just can’t get over you
I hate the fact that I love you
And that will never end

I feel my life is passing by
Every time I close my eyes
The world around me moves; it changes
My friends and family become strangers
Everything I thought I was
Passes with the setting sun
"Who am I?" I often think
"What am I? Who will I be?"

I change as quickly as the seasons
With little rhyme or reason
And tomorrow I do not know
Where I'll be; where I'll go
They batter me with constant questions
If not pleased, they give suggestions
I try so hard to please them all
Do they build me up to watch me fall?

So much out there to explore
I want to learn it all before
I am old awaiting death
I wanna live while I still have breath
A doctor? Singer? Or a writer?
National Geographic Photographer?
Too many options not enough time
College will make me lose my mind

There's only one thing I want to be and do
And that's be me and love on YOU

Out there; searching
Looking; breathing
But not for you
Breathing; yearning
For something bigger
The light. The Truth
It's been too long
Dear old friend
I need you back here again
Life is dry
The fish need water
Breathing but no oxygen
It was a whole season
I forced the void closed
But my face hit the dirt
I am a dreamer
Thought this would last forever
But "forever" always hurts
Running faster now
For my life
My past comes and haunts me
This time
It shall not win
For I am no longer empty
I feel things filling
Pressure building
I soon shall explode
Overwhelming
Everlasting
Forever changed by your love