Of all the things you said to me
I never thought I love you
Would hurt the most

I've always been ******* drowning
And you held my head above water
But you didn't bring me to land

We've come full circle
From intertwining hearts
Connected mind body and soul
To being strangers
Who can't think of one thing to talk about
I feel myself changing again
And I think if you'd let me show you
We'd have more in common
Than different
Again

55 in a 35,
Window open on a sub zero day
I realize I am simply
A rendition of what my parents
Hate most of themselves
I am the things they feared of becoming
I jump voids for fun
And laugh until my head goes numb
I know my heart and I know it's broken
But I am comforted knowing
That I can rewrite myself
As many times as I need
Act on my impulses every day
Until I am unrecognizable
I'm not afraid to be
The crazy one anymore
I guess that's just what happens
When something irreparable snaps
Deep inside you
I smile in relief,
And speed up to 70

Music blaring in my car
As I sip bitter coffee
If you could see me now,
You'd tell me,
"You never liked this song.
You never liked black coffee &
You told me you weren't addicted
To anything, let alone cigarettes"
Of course I'd tell you that
Since I didn't want to tell you
That your touch on my skin
Instantly invades my bloodstream
Makes it hard to think
Takes the pain away
I didn't want you to know
That the only thing I've allowed myself
To get addicted to
Is you

We're all playing the same game
On different levels
We're all fighting like hell
Just with different devils