I am nowhere,
And I've been working for years to get here.
Something inside me is broken.
Pulling, and pushing; it's pain I cannot bear.
I am chilled,
But not from the cold air.
Some part of me can't help but pick,
At these silent scars I wear.
Everything good is muffled,
I feel guilty in your eyes.
And I am so ******* scared,
That I may never truly rise.

And you deserve so much more than this.

You are my spring,
Warm and breezy.
In your sunny insouciance,
I am pacified,
Calmed.

You are my lover,
Hot and knowing.
In your embrace,
I am exalted,
Zoetic.

You are my god,
Transcendental and virtuous.
In your divinity,
I am lustrated,
Awakened.

You are my Toulouse,
Beautiful and attentive.
In your heart,
I am home,
Serendipitous.

I wanna escape reality.
To find the solitude of our stars.
Flee to cliff edges,
And lose myself in the Milky Way that your skin shines in the moon's half light.
I wanna feel the tides lap at my feet, and dance with you under the melodious sky,
Painting ourselves with starlight in the shadows of this night.
I want to be translucent with you,
Dissipate just enough for all the hardships to slip through.
Where nothing is true, but the fire of your skin on mine,
Your eyes drinking in the shallow pools of my mind.
Where we can chase demons through black sands, and send them running with our own list of demands.
And then fall down, upon the thousands of rock memories, those mountains ground slowly to dust, and revel in the sweet serenity of those mountains specks of forever, as they become metaphors for us,
Making our own specks, bright shards, like the smiling stars,
Sand in the hour glass of our forever.
The brightest bits, that we've ground down together.

Until, exhausted, and covered in sweet ocean-mountain dust,
We come back to face it all again,
City lights, and worries, and pain.
But it's ok, For I am safe from life's harms.
But only because I know when we get back, I can face this reality in your arms.

We are the dreamers.
The wandering souls.

We are lost in time.
As much as time is lost in us
Cause darling we are made of all kinds of Devine.

So I'll give you your dreams,
If you give me mine.
I'll fill your hidden places,
Ill Undress in your mind.
Ill Show you all the flaws in my very design.
The cracks in this veneer,
Expelling light as you make me lighter than air.


I asked for high tides
And I am high in your tides
Rolling through waves
To where your heart resides.


Where I shall speak to your soul.


And we will amalgamate,
We will levitate,
We will be struck by the very magnitude of how our souls gravitate.
Revelling in the fire of meteor showers and the salt of tidal waves.
Sweet salty tidal waves.
And all the intimacy that your body craves.

you, who have hidden all these things,
From the world, or maybe from yourself.
Stacked between your heart and the things that could hurt you,
Like a series of bloodied trinkets on a shelf.

So maybe you are stone,
All of you stone.
And I am your pestle,
Grinding these things between us to dust.
And sprinkling them into the sweet recipes of our future.
Kneading them together with passion and lust.

Or maybe you are steel,
All of you steel.
And I am your alloy,
Melting with you into something new,
Surfacing all our flaws, transformed into beauty,
With our iridescent life lights that gleam through.

So you are stone and my oceans crash against you.

So you are steel and my armour is useless against you.

So I am yours, this heart beats for you.

I stumbled,
before you ever thought of catching me.
Before the pools of light swimming in my eyes,
became fixated on your spark.
I fell,
melting into the skies.
Until your love
left me wandering in the dark.

I knew as you fell,
for I saw the light hit you.
Illuminating darkened corners,
I saw your bright colours,
and so faltered.
For a moment we soared,
as light as the morning dew.
Till we crashed from the heights,
our realities altered.

I was gone,
the second fate’s lips touched mine,
oh,
my sweet demise.
All the while,
as though part of my hearts design.
I fell prey to a wolf,
who cared not for our guise.

I felt myself yearning,
aching to know more.
So I looked for a moment,
to the depths of my soul.
When you told me though,
that your soul too was sore.
I knew that we needed,
a way to both be whole.

And so I stand now,
my wings they are broken.
Yours too, have been clipped,
for this is life’s torment.
Words fall from my lips,
and yet remain unspoken.
I cry for a new moon,
and with it, our loves assent.

Your eyes shine brightly,
Even in the dark..
Glistening with muted colours,
Like light shards in the tidemark.

I beg for metaphorical moons,
To bring forth again your oceans..
To bathe in your most majestic parts,
And go swimming in your darkest emotions.

Already your touch is like a salty sea breeze,
Sending ripples across my surface..
An amalgamation of fire, ice and tidal waves,
(I wonder if you do it on purpose..?)

You are rushing through my senses..
You are crumbling my defences.

And I am loving every moment of it.

June 22 2014

I saw your colours dancing,

When I closed my eyes to sleep.

So I gave you a piece of my heart,

That I now pray you will keep.



When I look into your eyes.

I can see through fire,

Seeing your mind peering back,

It fills my being with desire.



I see you existing,

With your exotic beauty and spirit,

It all leaves me quite breathless,

Something I hate to admit.



Knowing deep within my soul,

That you could set me free.

Trying to keep myself in check,

Do I have to let things be?



In another time or place,

Maybe you’d be mine?

For me and you though, my dear,

The stars they must align.



And so I pledge to you,

As I ponder us this night.

That although I cannot fix all things,

It’s your soul for which I fight.

I guess that I knew,
From the first time I lay next to you.
The way your body fit mine,
As if by some other beings design.
Just the unreal softness of your skin,
Should have clued me to what would begin.
The enchanting smell of your wondrous hair,
Intoxicating, as we held each other on your living room chair.
Looking back I wonder how we did not know,
Just how much our love would come to grow..

The light is gone,
there's nothing but darkness here.
Can you feel me?
Fingertips to lips.
Darkness enshrouding,
listen..
to the first aching note.
Your heart stirring,
in time to this melody.
Draw your warmth in close,
and you'll find me there.
Heartbeats coinciding,
lips pressed gently,
hands entangled.
There is fire smouldering,
passion in your eyes.
Clinging to memories,
fading in the night.
and they can't reach us here,
here, no-one exists.
Nothing but your soft breathing,
your gentle smile..
A nothing that is everything.
And the light surrounding you,
You, my most beautiful of hurt.

I feel your eyes on me,
Pulling me towards you.
Your intensity heightens,
Till surrender is all I can do.
I breathe in your taste,
Enveloped by your very life.
Your lips embrace mine,
Cutting through protests like a knife.
They move with subtle dexterity,
Melting my very soul.
With your fiery passion,
And ardent resolve.
Your body moves slowly,
Stirring sensations deep within mine.
We begin to move as one,
Bodies, minds and souls align.
Something begins to rise in me,
Blossoming from my inner femininity.
I see your lips press together gently,
Hear your sharp exhale, and am thrown into divinity.
All the while, your eyes still on me,
Inferring something with a raise of one brow..
But those wondrous lips form no words,
Not a single vow.

I'm not sure anymore,
Which part of us is right.
We're together somewhere in this darkness,
Even though we've lost all sight.

Pure intentions lost in translation,
Maybe we've lost our focus?
Like two impassioned artists,
Spilling paint onto our canvas.

Despite our mistakes though,
I'm sure we can save our work of art.
For even though we paint blindly,
Together we create an image of pure heart.

I want to find the pieces of you,
That noone else can see.
Those exquisite parts where your soul, your destiny,
Runs free.

The parts of you that want
This kind of love forever..
Our eyes would meet
And the earth would move,
As we came together..

We would dance,
You and I..
Turning slowly,
Hands to hips.
Creating melodies with our love,
With crescendos rising towards,
The meeting of our lips.

But, for now.

I can trace the soft lines of your skin,
Luminous ivory in this darkness.
I can taste the curves of your soft pink lips,
Revelling in the fire of our passionate kiss.

I can watch those same lips as they press together and then part,
As I trace the wondrous maps of veins over your sweet *******,
Back to your heart.

And that, my dear, is where I shall make my home.

You and I, we took a walk,
And as the darkening sky chased away the sun,
We both were aware.
That a spark of something between us had begun.

Our path, marked with shadows,
With moonlight filtering through..
Silver lines, glimmering beacons of clarity,
And sticatto images of me and you..

so..

We've begun an adventure,
Filled with endless possibilities.
And with every lingering kiss,
You are awakening my sensibilities.

Our vision is hazy,
Like the darkness dancing between those trees..
We are blindly placing footsteps,
Though they fall with surprising ease.

And I feel serendipitous,
When I am in your arms.
Your lips are sweet, your mind sweeter,
I am succumbing to your charms..

June 15 2014

I will wrap you in my life light.
For as long as I still wield it.
So it can hold you, through every sleepless night.
When my body and yours no longer fit.

I would let it all go, so you could be whole,
My lights last flickering flame.
To wash through and heal your soul,
Of the demons you cannot tame.

You said you wanted to know,
How you appear through another's eyes.
I wonder though, how YOU see you,
How much of what I see is a disguise.

Well,

I want to tell you how you taste,
Of cool rain and fire.
With petalled lips and milky skin,
Flushing crimson with desire.

Sometimes I can hear the soft notes of the music that moves you,
Dancing along parted lips.
Spilling secrets and an incandescent light,
Celestial parts, that you'd normally eclipse.

Sometimes you seem far off,
Battling monsters beneath the surface.
Externally calm, like the eye of a storm,
While the rest of us play part in life's circus.

Sometimes I want to trace your scars,
Which only tell truths in part.
And cannot even begin to tell,
Of the scars criss-crossing your heart.

..and still, delicate, like intricate lace,
Following the curves of your figure.
Woman, you are beautiful!
I'm not sure how you can't see that in your mirror.

I do not know your story,
The things that you have seen.
But I can see you've earnt your armour,
Placed around you like a screen.

So, please forgive this, a glimpse of how I see.
You, your being, your purpose.

And despite all these things,
There's untold more beneath your surface.