There is death chasing us all
And it is inevitable that I will fall
But I will run in till my breath is gone
Not because I'm afraid, But I know what I've done wrong

My air has run out
But my lungs refuse to shout
Have I found bliss?
Or is this all a sweeter way to touch deaths lips

I am frozen in a moving ocean
I'm not dead, But not alive, Forever in motion
What is motion but the absence of eternal rest?
Resting is better than being alive and second best

My skin is gone, I'm nothing but bone
My own family doesn't want my skeleton at home
So I'll haunt, Like I'm gaunt, Seems that Heaven didn't want me
And I lived to bland of a life to pay Hell's fee

My life, My death, There is nothing as sweet
As finding a new version of an impossible feat
To live forever, But be dead just as long
Isn't anything special, So throw yourself into the throng

It's the fall of us all
That raises us up, Or buried us down left to crawl
The chase is over, And you're scared
Fear no evil, It's Heaven that ruins us, I swear

My mind is numb
My skin cold from the ice in my veins
I'm a corpse that's alive
I'm awake after I died
My fingertips are thorns
My nails are frost
My knuckles are gems
So as I punch, They are lost
My eyes are glass
As I blink and cry they crack
My throat is sore
I dare not scream anymore
My mouth is a rose
That died before it's bloom
My lips are petals
And they burn as I kiss the devils heirlooms
My back is stem
That lovers break
As they try to rescue the daisies
That aren't in my head, but they're still fake
My body is a garden
That winter will always touch
It isn't groomed or seeded
So my heart's weeds will flourish in this rust

Close the doors
To cruel fate
Shut the windows
Could it be a mistake?

Wall up in safe simplicity
What is there to lose at this rate?
Can we contain every fear?
Could we ever use someone as bait?

If the Hermit does repent
And slowly opens up his gate
He may shake and tumble through
But he has escaped

Can you see the stars through your dizzy eyes?
Can you feel the high settling down?
I'm out of cough syrup
to keep us up, So realities spinning us off the crown

I must say I crave the smoke
that politely spills from my mouth
The soft cloud that always brings
a lost mind to a metaphorical south.

Give me the mushrooms,
It calls for me in my dreams,
It knows i'm begging for a taste,
A sensation that steals my soul it seems

But my vices aren't my addiction
I swear, They say they're perfectly fine
They're fine as long as I don't take to much
But I fear that I'm losing all my high time

      I'm out of money
That will keep me up
                              So I'm out of strength
Reality's coming on down
     I guess I must come down
                                                                             Or I'll never really be found

The sun is setting
The cars are still comatose
******* New Jersey

Razor eyes stare through the glass
As fading light lies in bed
With rushing hope scrambling around
And robotic death sentences slowing there beeps
As shadows whisper welcoming words
To unknown callers
Silent screams of repent to undo a hopeless cause
And brilliant white sheets soon to be folded
With chilling beds and underground havens
Will tears touch the freshly placed dirt
Where your body lies,never to see the sun again
We remember the last moments
Of the sad truth

Cavernous spaces
Divide our youth
Holding us back from
Tainted truth

Words left untitled
To wander our mind
Slowing seeping
Into the divine

What was a timeless girl
Turns into summer rain
Spring flowers
And falls change

Winter chill frozen on your lips
But all I need is a chance
To dance with you
In a eclipse

Look at me in danger eyes
The blood on your wrist has no disguise
All this pain that seems so real
Eventually you will not feel

You can wait for a change
But it’s far better living on the stage
With flesh and blood carved out
On marble thrones, Singing dark tones

Breathe In, Breathe Out

Just ask me to
And i'll fall for you
And I don’t care what you do or say
As long as you’re in my arms
Everything’s okay

Breathe In! Breathe Out!

Let the waves take you
Ride the ocean in my arms
Takes the sea
And stop accepting this harm

Have you heard the gun shots?
Have you felt the stab?
You’re living in a dystopia
Depressions on your tab

Just try to push me away....
You’re walking nowhere
Looking for a change
Boiled in anger
Destroyed by rage
But this light?
It gives you a timeless age

Breathe In, Breathe Out

Just ask me to
And i'll fall for you
And I don’t care what you do or say
As long as you’re in my arms
Everything’s okay

Ugly.Hit Repeat.Ugly still.Talking,Talking,Talking.Rumors.She doesn’t even…..He is just faking…Pointless.Pulsing through the hallways. Heads don’t turn.Still ugly.Enter the doorway.Copper countries are dripping on the wall.***** hit cold seats.Still ugly.Now there’s more.Fat *****.Still Ugly.Muffled sounds through my head.My name rings as if hit by a bell.Caroline.Fat.Caroline.*****.Caroline.Ugly.My hand salutes the air.Ugly.Scattering out of the copper flooded doorway.Ugly.Saltwater fresh on my face.Ugly.Fat.*****.Repeat.Repeat.Repeat.REPEAT.REPEAT.snap.bang.­Red stained walls.Ugly.Ugly.Ugly.Still ringing through my head like the bullet.Release.Releasing.Released.Eyes open. Ugly Fat *****.Wasteland.

I cry someone
Else's sadness
Wrought by the cold desire
Of playing savior
So that maybe i could save
Him

Today I woke up
And I stayed in my sleep
I was meant to walk on dreams
I know this all seems…
Like a dedication to a lunatics life
But i’m dancing on clouds
In a world that allows
The freedom to be
Or the freedom to see
Every color, Every sound
Everything lost that’s also found
In the world where dreams are alive
Awakened and forsaken
For royalty and those who wish to die and survive
Today I woke up
And smiled because
I can finally exist
As a royal outlaw

One day I woke up
And they called it being alive
And I took this gift for granted
So I cried
“Look at Mommy”, “Mommy” help me
But then I didn’t know
What’s a Mother? What’s a Mother?
A Mother is Hope

One day I opened up my eyes
I searched quickly what’s around me
I found Sisters, I found a Father
I found a family,
And a beautiful Mother too
What’s a Mother? What’s a Mother?
A Mother is the one who stood back and smiled as you grew

I found my Mother in memories
In the sand, snow, and sun
I found my Mother loving melodies
That in her mind goes unnamed
I found my Mother with open arms
Where she swore I didn’t deserve harm

I found my Mother where there were few
And I love my Mother,
And my Mother is you.

So call me, tell me, What you can do?
My queen of hearts is falling for you.
Call me baby, yes, tell me what I should do!
It's for you, see me painting these roses brand new?

And you’re just a white rabbit that never dug your own hole.
You wander through Wonderland looking for the right role.
But you’re always in a rush to find love,
And you run right past Alice, Even though she was your sign that fell from above.

Do I exist, I fear, O, I fear I disappear.
But my cheshire grin stands strong.
You can call me strange, But it's really the curiosity that you see as a bit queer.
But no one ever said that was wrong.

So call me, tell me, What you can do?
My queen of hearts is crumbling for you.
Call me baby, yes, tell me what I should do!
It's for you, see me painting these roses brand new?

Oh, I've made a world of my own.
Eat me, Drink me, and it can be your home.
Oh Suitable, They scream "Off with your head"
Darling I will protect you from the the 7 of aces that are chrome red.

What's a celebration? A unbithday I beg!
Shall we celebrate with tea? Or with lies on our teeth?
Wonderland has captured us, Pulled us in by our legs.
Because when you play with strangers, You see the magic of underneath.

So call me, tell me, What you can do?
My queen of hearts is falling for you.
Call me baby, yes, tell me what I should do!
It's for you, see me painting these roses brand new?

The dreams that you miss
Are the ones you refuse to find
That's how childhood dies