I'm not what I used to be
I've become lost trying to find "me"

All the souls i've met
I've touched,but I'm not finished yet

I'll keep walking
Looking for the newest soul shocking

It's life that I live
Life thats made me act passive

As I search for my cure
Eloped by the obscure

Can you see the stars through your dizzy eyes?
Can you feel the high settling down?
I'm out of cough syrup
to keep us up, So realities spinning us off the crown

I must say I crave the smoke
that politely spills from my mouth
The soft cloud that always brings
a lost mind to a metaphorical south.

Give me the mushrooms,
It calls for me in my dreams,
It knows i'm begging for a taste,
A sensation that steals my soul it seems

But my vices aren't my addiction
I swear, They say they're perfectly fine
They're fine as long as I don't take to much
But I fear that I'm losing all my high time

      I'm out of money
That will keep me up
                              So I'm out of strength
Reality's coming on down
     I guess I must come down
                                                                             Or I'll never really be found

Press my bare feet on the cold wood
Slowly pacing
Fold up the last patio chair
And fold up summer

Maybe I'm a lost believer
Hiking through the revolts of a cold fever
I've felt this change before
It's the wind of regret knocking at my door
The storm isn't passing
So we'll dance in the rain
The cold won't catch us
As long as we stay happily insane

There is death chasing us all
And it is inevitable that I will fall
But I will run in till my breath is gone
Not because I'm afraid, But I know what I've done wrong

My air has run out
But my lungs refuse to shout
Have I found bliss?
Or is this all a sweeter way to touch deaths lips

I am frozen in a moving ocean
I'm not dead, But not alive, Forever in motion
What is motion but the absence of eternal rest?
Resting is better than being alive and second best

My skin is gone, I'm nothing but bone
My own family doesn't want my skeleton at home
So I'll haunt, Like I'm gaunt, Seems that Heaven didn't want me
And I lived to bland of a life to pay Hell's fee

My life, My death, There is nothing as sweet
As finding a new version of an impossible feat
To live forever, But be dead just as long
Isn't anything special, So throw yourself into the throng

It's the fall of us all
That raises us up, Or buried us down left to crawl
The chase is over, And you're scared
Fear no evil, It's Heaven that ruins us, I swear

I would die for you. I am going to die for you.*
Not today.
Not tomorrow.

but one day it will all make sense and everything will be beautiful
and I will be warm in the winter,
and you will be by a fire watching the icicles drip down.

and you will see me in the newly poured puddle.
You will see me in the mud at the bottom of the hill.
You will see me in the patches of snow scattered about the yard.

You will see the thaw. The rebirth. The spring. The sun.
Just know I burnt myself up so your frigid dusk could be undone.

And she won't be afraid
She will stay strong
She will not cry
In till you leave

Listen to her thoughts
Over and in repeat
Taking in her eye for photographs
She's always filming me

she  takes it in
she breathes it out
she sets the scene
so she can scream

And  let it out
Through her hands
Into her pen
Etching words that hold her mind

A artist
Bleeding through
Our societies
Worthless bandages

She needs herself
She needs someone else
She has her ideas
Expressing them though,

scares her into,
covering up,
getting jacked up,
and breaking down

I look up into the night sky
And see nothing but dreams
And broken promises
I wish for the best
And then I look up
To see my wish with everyone else's
Unanswered hopes

An Angel gave me wings
And she made me promise not to sin
I guess I’m just a liar
Who would do anything to learn to fly
So watch me as I fly from this place
Watch me as I speak brashly to Gods face
No I don’t need to believe in you
Because I know you don’t believe in me too
Yes I know you won’t care about your accidents
Now I know you don’t care about the bodies in my basement
I’m not half of the things I say
I’m not part of the excuses I gave to those I wished to lead astray
Please, Please I’m Suffocating!
I should of known you wouldn’t be waiting…

The dreams that you miss
Are the ones you refuse to find
That's how childhood dies

I cry someone
Else's sadness
Wrought by the cold desire
Of playing savior
So that maybe i could save
Him

We remind ourselves
That life will come to a end
And we won't mourn it

I want you to remember my name when everything is forgotten,
It’s fine that the world consigns to oblivion,
It needs a absence from the weight it was given.
Remind yourself of your perfect soul, Let that remind you of me,
of my need to find a reason why
Let me go to sleep keeping you as the reason tonight
the reason to try,
before I forget that I exist.

You watched me as I
dissolved.

And I hated you with
every
melting particle.

And I loved you with
each
evaporating atom.

This is simple
           This is quick
                       My mind is dying, It's decadence
and when I ask for help, Everyone only speaks static