it's a grim thought that changes my whole mindset i can't find a way to shove the image of your face out of my mind i'm frightened that it will soon be gone out of my grasp
i have nothing to hold onto slowly sinking under the waves again my eyes inch up to the surface to find the children and friends laughing and whistling
crimson waves take me further it slowly seeps from my own body frozen, i find strange comfort deeper by the second
i want to write about you and how i wish i could unravel your dense mind make your complicated countenance simple to yell at you about how i passionately love how easily your words flow to and through me and echo when you're gone how i feel as if you're the only one i have left and how desperately i wish i could hide you in my lungs and breath you so that you couldn't move and couldn't leave me alone
i'm pretending i didn't hear you tell me that you had to leave
soft, pure, precious i'm losing all of my words 'cause i've spent them all on you secure, blissful, warm your smile is electric the most intoxicating sight sacred, hidden, enthralling i can sense you here but i cannot reach you
i constantly rewind the first time you hugged me and how your hands lingered on the small of my back found their way all the way around my waist
your smirk still haunts my dreams i know it was an understanding smirk as dark as it was i wanted to curl up and sleep in it the biggest turn on
sometimes i still wish you would have drunkenly stumbled upon my front porch called me down and gave me a sip convinced me to be yours while i tasted your whiskey tongue
i fell in love with your arms sturdy and strong i knew they could wield off dangers of any kind when i miss you the most i can feel them on me and my heart drops