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Carol Huizinga Jul 2010
If only people could understand
Messages that cross this land
That there is not always a wow
When I sit before you in a bow
Angels speak across my mind
Trying to alleviate the bind
It is not always want we want to hear
As I watch your fallen tears
If you're blocked at this point
Your angels will not cross this joint
They will not tell history or ahead
Until you clear the cloud in your head
I wish I could perform the miracle you wish
I do bring to you food on a dish
But because you wish to hear different
Your energy will always be spent
I give you answers to your pain
But to you it seems lame
I am sorry you could not be open
As I watch you loping
Running far from you and me
So inside you will never see
Such a shame you ran away
It was a beautiful moment for you to gain
To reach that power you have inside
Realize your pain and cries
Are awaiting to be washed away
All you needed was to say
I am open, I can heal
No moments will again will it steal
To this negative earth we walk
In our angels we need to talk
The love and abundance we would feel
Would feed our next emotion meal
Healing and growing we would move on
Enjoying the dew of the new dawn
I always will do the best I can
To make you understand
I am not always the answer
For truly you are the dancer
I see what is needing
For you to stop bleeding
Only you can apply the bandage
If you could only manage
You would see the gift of love
I gave you from above
It is the answer you needed to see
You only just needed to be
I am sorry to you my friend
Prayers to you I forever send
To you I am not good enough
Lessons for you are too tough
That I cannot help
It is your hand dealt
I only try my best
I will never give any less
I am who I am
In this I take my stand
It is a gift from above
Only you cannot see the love
That is not my fault
You do not open your vault
I walk away strong and free
And you walk too blind to see
Carol Huizinga 2010
Jul 2010 · 750
Soul Scissors
Carol Huizinga Jul 2010
You attached the beautiful spiraling string
Waiting for life, what it will bring
Like a puppet I dance the fight
Not to get tangled within your sight
Grasping, you pulled, I flew up high
Your lips bringing me to a soft sigh
Glimmers within your eyes
Those depths are my ties
I leap, I bound
Scissors not quite yet found
Why can you not feel the direction?
Make the simple connection
Can you not see how far it can go?
In beauty our souls can flow
Will you pull my string under?
In your thinking blunder
Or will you pull me within
Feel me like it’s not a sin
See me, mind open wide
Wearing gloves so you don’t slide
Down the spiraling string of life
Within your own soul's strife
You hold the scissors above
Simply I am the love
Carol Huizinga 2010
Mar 2010 · 541
Death By Love
Carol Huizinga Mar 2010
In that moment I felt all your strife
As I felt the blade of your knife
Cut through the heart of my soul
You never understanding it's true role

My blood spilling on the floor
You turned your back on all we adored
What changed that moment of life
Making you see only the blade of your knife

Innocence is now but a torrid scar
Everybody's gaze lands on me from afar
You took the beauty from my sleep
Nightmares just make me want to leap

You were lord and master of this house
Me and the kids tip toed like a mouse
Your every desire your every wish
I served the next meal upon your dish

No longer am I who I was inside
You took away every ounce of self pride
But that moment they took me out that door
My true light and soul started to soar

Never again will I feel your pain
No more of my soul will you gain
My spirit soars above the clouds
I now speak my truth out loud

I walk this journey now alone
No more sins do I need to atone
This thing: freedom, I this day do feel
No more laughter will you steal

My children's innocence need not halt
I must teach them it is not their fault
They must learn to see beauty within
On that day their life will truly begin

Now you will understand my cage
There who will put up with your rage
You stare wistful through those bars
Finally we see the beauty of the stars

I pray everday to my God above
In his grace I will lay my love
Everyday we become stronger
In fear we live no longer
Carol Huizinga 2010
Mar 2010 · 731
As I Close My Eyes
Carol Huizinga Mar 2010
I lie my head upon my pillow
I think of this imaginary fellow
I have faith he is coming my way
Unbecoming thoughts I need to keep at bay
It is so easy to feel not good enough
My looks compared to society is tough
Because inner beauty no longer means much
Nobody understands a compassionate touch
Clothes more expensive than our rent
I think people have become a litte bent
No longer does the world shoot from the heart
We worry more what is on the wall for art
Children being taught so young to model
Plastic parents those we do need to throttle
We are teaching beauty is only skin deep
Pop a few more pills it will help you be sleek
My fellow he will stop inside and see
The difference between them and me
That nothing else in this life will matter
Nor in this world will he ever feel battered
He will forever know I am a gift from above
I will wash his feet in the purest love
My man will know my heart can never be sold
He seeks with me a true passion to unfold
Spirit sought this soul to mirror only mine
Knowing our unity in this heaven will be divine
Reflections of love within our beautiful eyes
Our souls are bare no need to be in disguise
He knows I will never think to close the door
It will not matter whether we are rich or poor
There is no better place for him to be
Than coming home to be with me
So as I close my eyes to go to sleep
I send him the sweetest dreams to keep
Until he is once again within my arms
Flames from our fire setting off the alarms
So I may never be a pretty barbie doll
Nor do I love to go shopping at the mall
But I see the beauty in the smallest things
Angels gave unto me the truest music to sing
For my words will only be spoken to the one
Who is willing to live in the warmth of my sun
Carol Huizinga 2009
Mar 2010 · 867
Vastness Of Life
Carol Huizinga Mar 2010
In my little world I hear the birds serenade my soul

I hear the wind whispering through the trees

I see the sparkles of the morning dew making diamonds in the grass

I smell the freshness of the rain falling down around me

I see the butterflies dancing in delight across this earth

I see the wisdom in the great owl teaching me silence

I see the great eagle who teaches me to soar and spread my wings

I feel the sun bringing me warmth and illumination

I see the moon and feel the great mystery he beholds

I see the vastness of my life when gazing upon the stars

Most of all I see God and love in all I see and will be

And that is why I truly love just being me
Carol Huizinga 2009, dedicated to Amanda, this one I wrote a little different and it became her wedding vows, when I married her and Byron.
Carol Huizinga Mar 2010
Great mother's spirit speaks through my word
What she transpires truly needs to be heard
We do not worship the greatness of our earth
Instead we fight endlessly over our own turf
Paying huge money traveling to **** her game
Mounting it on the wall to feel our own fame
Stripping trees from her precious mountains
Halting the streams flowing freely as fountains
Animals not a special totem nor a spiritual sign
How as people to her did we become so blind
Lazily no longer a society working our hands
To our continuous **** and pillage of this land
Mother's spirits watching from heaven so high
If only we could see the saddened tears she does cry
Feverishly to awaken they shake they shout
Ignoring the signs we continuously move about
Mother Earth unleashes to us her greatest fury
Oh it didn't affect my life so why should I worry
Spiritual masters try to teach peace and insight
But even they are overwhelmed to our plight
Under our own convictions this life will shatter
Grieving misunderstood lies we are so battered
Maybe we will then stop to look for redemption
She can wash us in forgiveness and exemption
Replenishing spirit in our mind body and soul
Might then we reach our destiny our final goal
Mother Earth patiently taking her sweet time
Hoping one day we set forth to go back to find
Our own spirits whispers of truth and integrity
Before unleashing her fury with no great pity
She's offered us many occasions to save face
Walking the ancient ways of her humble grace
Please listen to Mothers whispers in my voice
Before we are simply doomed with no choice
Carol Huizinga 2009
Carol Huizinga Mar 2010
Today I came across a beautiful bird
It started talking to me; how absurd
He said people are so caught up in strife
Not enjoying the simpler moments of life
No longer as a people do we feel deep joy
Children no longer making their own toys
We sit them in front of cable television
Wondering why hate is all they can envision
Eating fast food from boxes in microwaves
We truly wonder why we are early to the grave
Doctors get paid extra to make us addicts
Pain and suffering is running so tragic
This gorgeous bird hopped onto my shoulder
Him and I chatted of life's huge boulders
He said people used to simply cover their ****
Now we are selfish over the almighty coin
Days are gone of fresh food from our gardens
Now we are just a lost society hardened
We talked about how nobody looked at the stars
No more fantasy only dreams seemingly so far
We wondered why we were far from the norm
Why people cannot sit to enjoy a perfect storm
The bird and I came to the conclusion
That compassion and love are just an illusion
How much longer before this insanity stops
Before our life burdens are too heavy to drop
The bird chirped a little music in my ear
He told me I have nothing in this world to fear
My eyes were open I could truly see
The beauty of what spirit provided me
Grateful of blessings and gifts given to us
In angel spirits my soul will always trust
My little bird, sadly he soared up and above
But not before he embraced me in total love
I will never forget this little bird
Nor the kindness to me of his word
Carol Huizinga 2009
Carol Huizinga Mar 2010
A butterfly landed on me today
Truly he made my day
I spoke with him awhile
What he told me made me smile
He said nothing in this world matters
We must end our constant chatter
To be able to open and see
All the glorious beauty to be
His message was something to grasp
The peace he brought me is to last
For it's not everyday I can say
Something precious came my way
That is why I know he was angel sent
His colors were so unique and different
To bring joy and happiness to my heart
So I would never walk a different start
Being one within God's adoring love
Knowing I have the ability to rise above
I am so truly blessed he came to me
Truth and compassion are meant to be
Like him I am unique in all I say
Angels' love on my journey everyday
I know my way of life is a choice
Moving people with my voice
Loving as we walk hand in hand
Like a butterfly across this land
Spreading laughter and joy
Like an innocent child with a toy
My words may be easy to conceive
But how many can truly receive
Expressions of love to behold
I am richer than all the world's gold
The truth is always within sight
As a butterfly my soul takes flight
It is so truly wonderful this day
That he decided to come my way
I am blessed to walk this earth
Until God takes me for my rebirth
Light dancing across my face
He then fluttered away in grace
Magic and miracles will never end
Goodbye my little butterfly friend
Carol Huizinga 2009......dedicated to Marlene who lost the battle to cancer in fall 2009, I so miss your sweet smile.
Mar 2010 · 629
Wisdom Coming From Above
Carol Huizinga Mar 2010
Walking down the river bed
I was trying to clear my head
Allowing good energy to flow
White spiraling light aglow
Trees stood around on tower
I stopped to smell a flower
I gazed into the river at the fish
Stopping long enough to make a wish
A prayer to my God above
To surround me in unconditional love
I felt his hand hold onto mine
Knowing nothing could stop my time
My soul truly does fly free
Heaven walks daily with me
I hope my words do not get caught
Within society's listless thoughts
I would lose my mind
True peace never to find
I no longer need to fight
People nor the world's plight
Tears will spill over the sins
Of how hatred and war wins
My spirit flowing on river tides
With pure energy I will glide
I will forever try to reach
Society's people I can teach
No longer needing to live in pain
They need no more blood to stain
For now along the river bed
They walk clearing their heads
Stopping only to smell the flowers
Truly feeling peace and power
Spirit whispers them above
To touch their own angels' love
Now they truly understand me
With all the beauty I do see
Carol Huizinga 2008
Mar 2010 · 648
Stopping For Regret
Carol Huizinga Mar 2010
Please tell me how many men I have to kiss
Before I find one like you I missed
I still remember the fever of your touch
I wanted to walk with you that day so much
Softly you placed your hand upon my arm
Your muscles rippling from working on the farm
Innocently you grazed my lips with a kiss
All I could feel was a spiraling unknown bliss
Oh my God handsome this was all so wrong
Your passionate grip made me feel I belong
My mind was reeling but I had to walk away
I was in a relationship I could not stay
You are simply my one and only life regret
Although it is something I did learn to accept
I couldn't explore that fire in my own fashion
Although you are the first to match my passion
Imagine the places we could have explored
Leaving you that day I truly wanted to ignore
From that point on I was ruined for life
I was so unwilling to become an ordinary wife
I answered that nagging question in my mind
That neither you or myself were one of a kind
Men always becoming obsessed with my soul
I cannot feel their light only a sinking hole
I tried many times to hide my own feelings
But the lack of depth sends my heart fleeing
To this day I still search with a longing
Knowing it is out there I feel it so strongly
I need to feel a sweet angel touch my skin
To ignite that passion buried now deeply within
Healing and growing I have no need to hurry
Soon spirit will gift a gentleman to my journey
We will explore more than the first sweet kiss
Trust me when I say this one I will not miss
I know the difference of what love I need
I will no longer allow my inner being to bleed
I am worthy of great abundance from above
For the angels taught me the gift of true love
Carol Huizinga 2009
Carol Huizinga Mar 2010
In sadness I cry
For once again I tried
Interpret the signs
Of a love that binds
To touch a part
Of my heart
That has never been found
Still listening forthe sound
I move forward on
Seeking the new dawn
Washing away the pain
Of the truth I cannot gain
One day I will learn
To call the one I yearn
He is waiting for me
I need to open and see
Stop wasting time
On the ones who don't rhyme
With the sounds of my soul
Standing in truth of my goal
I look behind no more
On the wings of a dove I soar
Angels pick up my feet
Showing the trail is never too steep
For the love I have within
Never to share would be a sin
I am so cherished and loved
I fit in my angel wings like a glove
So as I bow my head
The tears are dead
What will be will be
As God walks with me
Holding my hand
As I cross this land
Once again
I begin
Listening for the sound
Of where my soul is bound
Carol Huizinga 2008
Carol Huizinga Mar 2010
As a child I thought they stole
The true essence of my soul
I walked without innocence
Listening in vain for my penance
Searching I journeyed to and fro
To realize I had no great place to go
I wandered through my emotions
Which sent my life in locomotion
Not being quite able to see
The beauty that was within me
People would tell me I was a gift
My mind blocking it I would go stiff
Surley if they could see the past
The love for me would never last
Not once did I see my own light
I was way too caught up in my own fight
One wretching hurt sent me stopping
I finally seen all my own mocking
Sick and depressed my heart was crushed
I wanted dearly to become a drunken lush
I was tired of carrying this extra person
A deep look inside sent me cursing
Nobody on this earth can take away
The God soul given to me that day
Still as innocent as freshly first birthed
When I crossed this threshold to earth
I did allow my emotions to take it all on
When it was their burden for the wrongs
Being grateful not resentful towards them
I finally saw I was a beautiful shinning gem
Daily I learn this human suit I am to wear
Has no bearing on the soul I have to bare
With my angels we keep it locked and stored
I see the reflections now on my own accord
What the world thinks of me or this poem
It has no bearing on how I am going home
The voice whispers innocence within my mind
Beauty and grace is my angel soul intertwined
Channeling spirits from above where I belong
Speaking this truth I will forever stand strong
This battle of emotions never happening again
For now I see I am a true princess within
Carol Huizinga 2009

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