If love fades Or monotony grows tiring If "I love you" feels like lying If you can't stay Know that while you're away I may fill my emptiness Kissing bottles But while we're apart You'll still hold my heart
Some say to heal you just write what hurts But I still feel you taking over my words Your hands still stinging, leaving me red Though it's been two years You tugging my shirt over my head Still a lingering fear I need to escape you But I'm stuck here
One day he'll look at you The same way he has for months You'll only see a shell Of the lover he was once He was slowly fading You guess you never noticed So you sit here waiting As he takes your love and throws it
The timing is wrong, You'll be gone for so long Everyone is saying You just have to be strong Maybe when you're back As if time will not move And there's nothing to lose As if you are not leaving Or this love isn't true
You move your hands Lightly down my sides As your hands meet my hips Memories flash of his I'm sorry I flinch Every time we fight But everyone's hands Haven't always been kind
The words I scribble More eloquent than I speak I stumble and choke Get red in the cheeks Forget what I said And stare at my feet My words sound strange My phrases are choppy My words lose their meaning My verbiage is sloppy Spaces are pauses In the words I spoke With tears in my eyes And a lump in my throat
You're my caffeine, nicotine See you in my day dreams Long nights, no sleep My heart is yours to keep You're my caffeine, nicotine Wake me from this bad dream Needed you to breathe Now I want some peace