I'm  Home

I got my own place today
And I did this without you
Turned the key and unlocked the door
And saw the empty rooms

The empty rooms reminded me
That although you wont be here
I'll have a chance to fill the rooms
With memories I'll hold dear

I can paint the walls with colors
Brite and pleasing to my eyes
Cover up past pain and hurt
Now knowing I'll survive

I can look out each new window
Or look in and see the views
And never see a memory
Of the times I spent with you  

I will place my pictures on the walls
Let your memory fade from view
And rearrange my future
To allow for something new

This new place I have will be my home
Where new memories will be made
It all began when I turned the key
As I walked in today

I'm Home
I'm Home

Carl Joseph Roberts 

Given Have A Chance

I know that I will love once more
And set my sorrow free
Move forward and begin a life
Without you next to me

I will feel a warmth within my heart
And give my love again
Heal my soul, begin to live
And find a new best friend

I wont wait for love to find me
I'll reach out and find new love
Give my heart to someone new
Who refuses to give up
  
I will see a smile and know right then
That we were meant to be
Realize it's a second chance
That God is giving me

I'll let go of hurt and anger
Feel calming peace within
For the heart will heal and repair itself
If it's given half a chance


Carl J. Roberts      March 2013

True but still funny. A typical cops night.


Dumb Love/Drunk Love

Today I tried to call you
You didn't pick up the phone
I drove bye and saw his car
And knew you weren't alone

I tried to call you one more time
While I stood outside your door
You pretended not to hear my call
And ignored me even more

I decided I would go out back
Throw stones and sing a song
Serenade you with my words
And prove my love once more

You opened up your window
Screamed, please leave me alone
But I know what you wanted
Was for me to keep on going

That guy inside I didnt know
Came out and said to leave
He had something in his hands
What it was, I could not see

I heard you scream into the night
Leave now or you will die
Thats when I saw he had a gun
And the fire in his eyes

I saw a flash and heard a bang
Then I decided I should run
Thats when I knew my love for you
Was over and now done

I saw the lights as the cop's arrived
And watched them search for me
Then I realized that where you lived
Was over one more street

Carl Joseph Roberts

The waiting time

There's a waiting time of each day for me
Not like I've know before
It's a time of day  when I lay and wait
For my heart to find love once more

Its a time of day when I make believe
That you are still here with me
You made my world lovely and bright
It was the way I dreamed it would be

I want to feel the touch of your hand once more
For in that moment I find
A remembered warmth that we once shared
A closeness of spirits and minds

I see your smile and I hear your voice
Its as plain as if you are here
It makes all of the sorrow and grief I have
Somehow suddenly  disappear

So please, please let me go on pretending
For that is the only way I can bare
For without you the silence surrounds me
And turns my waiting time to tears.

Carl Joseph Roberts

I'll Be Missing You

You said you were leaving
But I cant believe its true
How can I look into those eyes I love
And say good-bye to you

I will always remember the feelings
That we shared on that first day
The feeling that our love was true
And would never go away

I know your love is gone now
And I must start my life anew
I must find a way to hear your words
And move forward without you

I'll wonder if you'll think of me
Or of the love that we once shared
With a broken heart I write these word
For how much I truly care

As you look back on the memory
Of our love that was once true
Please know that while you're far away
I'll be missing you

Carl J. Roberts

Fast Forward

Fast forward,...... because life moves on
I now turn the page as a new chapter is born
Its like the winds of change have finally come
Like a cleansing rain or the morning sun

Fast Forward, because life moves on
I will share my heart and love once more
Old memories will fade as new loves last
And I will look forward and never back

Fast forward, because life moves on
My heart is now healed my scars are now gone
The future in focus and I can see the light
Its a path now taken to a bright new life

Fast forward because life, well because life moves on

Carl J. Roberts

I have to say Goodbye today.

I have to say goodbye today
For our love once strong has slipper away
The dreams of a future now in the past
For a love that I thought would forever last

I have to say goodbye today
To move forward, I must now turn away
No longer dream each night of you
I must heal my heart and find someone new

I have to say goodbye today
My heart's now healed and there is no more pain
My tears have dried as I start anew
Because today, today I say goodbye to you

Carl J. Roberts,  February 2013