Cain Arkay Lazarus

Cain Arkay Lazarus Jul 2012

Nyquil?

Scratching like a beast struggling to tear free
This sore throat of mine threatens to ****** me
Up until five I toss wide awake
A forced painful swallow with each breath I take

It seems never ending; I just want to sleep
Yet the itching-pain lets me do nothing but weep.

Suddenly just as I can bear no more
The demon in my throat bursts forth more than sore
I'm put out of my misery' lungs ripped in twain-
At least now I'll never have a sore throat again.

Cain Arkay Lazarus Jun 2012

Myodesopia

I'm so tired
Everything is so heavy
                                            Who am I?
I'm so tired
Everything is so blurry
Around the edges
                                            Keep walking
                                           Keep breathing
To the beat of a drum
                                           Keep living
I'm so tired
Don't shut down
They tell me
But deep down I know
                                           it's only a matter of time

Everybody dies
The world stops for
No one

Cain Arkay Lazarus Apr 2012

Obituary

Every step is heavy
Her legs are made of lead
Her eyes are cast down, weary
of the shadows in her head

*high school student killed in car accident...

Cain Arkay Lazarus Apr 2012

It's Too Sunny For This Darkness

Bright grey clouds
On hanging trees
Whose branches bob
on a song-lit breeze
The threat of rain
Hangs cold in the air
like the rumors of snow...
I wish I could care.
Enough to hope for the real winter's chill
But to hope, for me anyway, bodes ill
The opposite happens when I dare to dream
When I get what I wish for
They're not what they seem

Cain Arkay Lazarus Apr 2012

Eggs

With cries of
he is risen
and the broken necks bent skyward
and the chorus of the spring
and the empty gaze of millions
Friends lost to the flood
of a following

Cain Arkay Lazarus Mar 2012

Camry

You once locked me up
And could not find the key
Now you've still got me trapped here
With chains you can't see
You're keeping me bound
I will never be free
As long as you're leaving
These handcuffs on me

Cain Arkay Lazarus Feb 2012

Zoetic Thoughts

Again I falter
For the arrow
Who would remain so and break (hearts)
Than bend or curve
The contours of her body
Sharp, so sharp
Her hair bleeds
And her voice
and her eyes
and her heart
So sweet
I ache for her again
Though I know
'Tis in vain
For the woman who loves the arrow ends up split in twain.

For the woman who indirectly sent me to a mental hospital.