Through torrent rains and drying
fountains on through hearts that ache.
We’ve seen these broken shadows
slip into forgiveness, and words
whispered from your lips to mine.
So many times I seemed to take
offense to your actions, but what remains
is only love.

Half the days we have been together
have been spent while I’m away,
yet still we struggle forward, hand in hand
through every obstacle.  

With what we have faced I can say
that in my heart I believe that only
two obstacles seem to rise before us.
Do I mean that we will face no others?
No, but we can face the others with
more assurance, for we have faced
worse thus far.

The only two that worry me are that
of time and distance.
Time is the thief who steals all.
Time can shatter the toughest stone
and flood the driest plain,
but we can use it to build.
Through time our hearts can
grow fonder, come closer
and love deeper.

Miles stand between us with odds
that seem hardly fair, but what is this
but a plane ticket, a bus ticket
or a car ride away?

And this I promise you, love,
I cannot nor will not stay away.
All that must fall into place
for me to hold you close
will fall into place, and I will
be by your side from that point
until the end of all.

This I also promise and ask
the same of you; please walk
this life with me.  Do not ever
stand apart from me
for together we can raise the sun
and change the stars.

Hold my hand until we are shriveled,
old and gray, and then into heaven
let’s rise above, for I have never known love
until I looked into your eyes.

There’s a darkness deep inside of me
Waiting to arrive
I feel it crawling in my soul
I know it’s still alive

There’s an emptiness I cannot fill
With everything I do
All I know is I want you
But you don’t want me to

So I’m waiting
For you to care
Yes I’m waiting
But you’re not there
Yes I’m waiting
But you’re not there

Every time I cut myself
I feel it in my soul
Every time I slash my skin
I leave a deeper hole

I want to scar my body
Like you did my lonely heart
I want to save our loving
But it died before the start

So I’m waiting
For you to care
Yes I’m waiting
But you’re not there
Yes I’m waiting
But you’re not there

Everything I had to give
I gave it all to you
Everything I feel inside
Has turned a darker blue

I feel my demons on my back
A driving me below
All the blackness in my head
Has started to show

So I’m waiting
For you to care
Yes I’m waiting
But you’re not there
Yes I’m waiting
But you’re not there

So it’s time to meet my maker
In this ugly dance of life
It’s time to turn the grave into
My eternal morbid wife

The end has shown itself to me
And soon it will arrive
No longer me a foolish toy
No longer me alive

So I’m waiting
For you to care
Yes I’m waiting
But you’re not there
Yes I’m waiting
But you’re not there

So I’m waiting
For you to care
Yes I’m waiting
But you’re not there
Yes I’m waiting
But you’re not there

When my life must surely end
When I take a knife and bend
My heart across a slanted pole
And when I reach the grassy knoll
Of heaven's light, and heaven's dream
I will lie in the light of pleasure's beam

For I will know then more than most
For I have sailed on heaven's coast
I have flown through heaven's skies
And I have looked in angels' eyes
But what I want, most of all
Is a life with you, you hear me call

So I go to God and I beg and plead
Can't you see what I must need
I look into his eyes so old
I shiver once then grow so bold
I make my plea, he wants my soul
I scream out loud to take his toll

And he tears my soul apart
Then takes my mind and heart
Then gives them back with so much more
Then he opens up the door
From heaven to earth to finish my life
With you, my love, as my wife

Three days, four nights, he’s never known
Could be as rare as what she’s shown
And upon a whim his love has grown
So that he’ll never be alone

He thanks the Gods for perfect days
And their pardon of his ways
For on his knees each night he prays
And holds his breath for what she says

Each day he waits for bells to ring
And strains to hear the angels sing
Within her arms he takes to wing
For when she’s near he feels a king

Through the door and with the key
In love like that you want to be
So hear the words and you will see
That, my dear, it’s you and me

A broken heart,
was how I died.
But it was washed away,
By the tears I've cried.

I don't want you to mourn,
I don't want you to cry.
Just remember my smile,
the loving look in my eye.

Remember my humor,
for that is the key.
Remember my love,
remember me.

Speak not your words of love to me
For I feel them when we kiss
They ring like towered bells at night
And sing with loving bliss

I feel them born between the walls
And laid upon the bed
And when I hold you in the night
Those words fill up my head

So don’t you see, my lovely girl
What I’ve meant to say
Every time you look at me
You’ve said it in your way

For in your eyes I see the words
And see you say them proud
So if you mean to love me dear
There’s no need to speak aloud

Hold my hand and hold my heart
It’s all you need to do
For everything you’ve shown me dear
I know you love me too

I fell down
into a field of flowers today
I  found that the petals of the rose
looked more like the rotting limbs
of the putrid dead to me

The buds of spring
reminded me of hope
that would never bloom
even the fresh green grass
took on a hue of despair

I flew from the nest at eighteen
with resolve to never come back
I am thirty-four now, and
after too many women
too many heartaches
too many years as a soldier
I have collapsed back into that nest
my life has rebounded full circle
I am a failure