Do you feel like the rabbit hole has pulled you in yet?
This is when it starts to tug.
This is where your brain tumbles into oblivion
So hold hands; we all go together

In all the ways
I did not know you,
I know you were not unkind
Or cruel

It's unfair

You are too young to rest
Erased in spite and anger

How must it feel
Cold and bleeding
In the dark alley

Knowing death is near
No one to hold your hand
And beg breath and heartbeat
'Just a little longer, please
Help is coming'

But no help came
No one to beg you to live
Only howling wind

Walking down my road
Yellow lines under my feet
Rain on my skin
Down the line
Off the road
Sharp sand
Bleeding feet
Water washing
Sharp salt-stinging
Cold water
Knee deep
Obscure ocean

Cold floor
Bathtub backrest
Sharp things
Exposed skin
Secretive nature
Loud voices
Dark liquid
Blank ahead

Pages shift like water
Ink stills them

I dance in my skin
Restless movement
Of my mind

Translations of my hands
Shift in the breeze
From the never-weres
To the any-whens

One is not enough
Voice like a siren
Reeling in my head

Tangled breeze
Dancing up my legs
Across my shoulders

We behave
As wind
Behaves

Excitement
Rushing
Wickedly

I heard a word
A chaos bursting
With stillness of voice
In glances speaking
In distance, sighing
Few miles separate
Here and home
But it is too far
I am here
Pointlessly

I do believe
That it is time
For an adventure
So I am leaving
To explore

I am leaving
Useless things
Because I do not know
Where I am going
Or if I will return

But do not be sad
I am taking with me
All the  memories

They do not
Weigh at all

In a round box
I keep what I loose
Goodbyes I refuse to say
Photographs and letters
A few sketches
Scribbles and notes

Constant reminders
Of where I went wrong
Everything I can't fix
Or let go