Feeling at a loss, incomplete
An integral part of me, missing...

You, my darling, only you
You are the blood that rushes through my veins
You make my blood boil
That my body sings with pain and pleasure

You are my fantasy, my obsession
This distance rips me apart
For I am tethered to your side
Your half, your friend, your lover, your slave

Even this torture I will endure
As long as you are part of it
Even though you may reach the ends of the earth
I know you will find home in me

Love me, hurt me
The only way you know how
Holding nothing back, selfish and selfless
Insatiable

I can almost feel you, my love
The warmth of your breath
The pulse of your heart beating...

I cannot stay away, nor do I want to
You call out to me
You lure me in

I am but only human
I cannot fight these overwhelming feelings
I miss you so much it hurts...

This is the last tear I would shed for you
I don't have any tears left in me anymore
The depths of my pain go beyond crying
Aching and throbbing as I bled

All I wanted was a little kindness
A little compassion, a little acknowledgement
It was a mistake on my part
To even consider you capable of any

You told me  I was worthless
A waste of time, A waste of oxygen
You repeated it like a mantra
Cursing my existence
Until I, too, believed it to be true

You were systematic in your hatred
You abused my body, my mind, my soul
You attacked me incessantly until I shattered
Now an empty, broken vessel of the person I once was

You cannot hurt me any more than this
You've taken all I have and more
I have nothing else to lose
I simply don't care anymore

So I close my eyes, and let go
Of the final breath I had been holding onto
As I welcomed the cold night, the darkness
...


...I hope I've finally made you happy now.