Go to Hell
& please take her with you
Keep being so angry
I'm over here laughing
Singing
Like I never have with you
You stole my shine
Drowned my noises with your wisdom
You think you're so wise
Yet you're in the position you're in
It's disgusting
How I was so in love with you
How I still dream of our love every night
I miss the way you used to control me
Pleasure each other
Your hair is huge
I hope it burns along with you two

She's the only one who makes me feel beautiful
I'm so proud to show her off to the world
I even love Christian when she is with me
Fire sets her free
I don't even need my Prozac
Mary Jane

I don't deserve Christian
He loves everything about me
He's going to college
He has a job
Christian loves me
I'm still dripping dry
noraA has completely left me
Yet he still lingers on my skin
Why isn't Johnny Football good enough for me?
I'll always want Mr. Rock & Roll
You know they'll fall for you so fast
Mr. Backstage Pass
Just remember me
I made the finishing touches

Damaged beyond repair
I will never love again
Drag in another teenage innocent with your Cobain/Keenan angst
I'll take two drags for every one I took with you
You can't feel me
But I can feel you
My anchor, keeping me close
How can I fall in love with Johnny Football if James is the one I'm longing for?
You've made this bed, & I can't fall asleep in it
Now I am left alone, no instruction book
James was always there to tell me what to do
What to hate
How to worship
How to ****
& comb your hair
James & Johnny Football are very different
I am Christ
James is praying to Maynard for the second
Return to me, James!
I want you
She doesn't
But now you're breathing
& I'm drowning

What do I want?
I'm still mourning over my loss
You're never coming back
Do I stay in my state of comfort?
Not venturing outside of my depressing globe
Or do I see to brake the barriers?
Even your silence leaves me breathless
I should have never thought of you
I know, & I knew, that it was never you
I know in my heart it's not you
So why can't I make up my mind?
Why haven't I cleansed my clothes of your scent?
I give up!
I surrender into the silence, gorgeous!
I'm tired of making love to your memory!
I'm escaping this stratosphere
& I will find you

I am everywhere.

i have been craving him
my rain cloud
for so long
that i have almost forgotten about the sun
my sunshine
she is so beautiful
so kind
the perfect person
the purest heart
never a bad intention has ever been held by my sunshine
i've put myself so deep into his frigid precipitation
that i had forgotten her warm rays
i want my skin to darker from her aurora
i'm ready for the light
i'm ready to be happy again

Maybe you're the reason mommy described me as her other "****** up kid"
Desperate for one boy's attention
Because I was never worthy enough for yours
In and out of my life
Like the cylinder dollar bill was in and out of your nostril
Late night phone calls
"Do you love me, kiddo?"
A hell of a lot more than you've ever loved me
"Tell me you love me!"
You scream as if you were trying to intensify the high
I will never be a pain killer
And that will never be good enough for you