It had nothing to do with me
They tell me it's easy
And sure i want the energy
But what am i proving and what in the hell am i doing

The dirt won't move itself
And the roof wouldn't leak if i sent the help request
That's what they tell me
And I never questioned authority

What difference does it make
Unless it helps me to pay the rent
What do they call that
Something something pessimistic

I never really had any trouble
It had nothing to do with me remember
When you feel content
Does it feel good, i can't tell

I don't know what i think of me
I'd like to know what she does
And though it's not much she knows
I might not be as fraught afterwards

What do you see when you look at me
Explain it to me honestly
And not that it's depending
But I'm still unsure of my footing

This all seems so dangerous to me
Anything outside the smallest boundary
I'd feel more relaxed in outer space
But I'd wonder if you were looking up constantly

So I spent the day in your preference
And still i thought i could avoid your presence
Though it's not much i know
I'm just not as fraught afterwards

We were never going to meet
We kept reinforcing the wrong things
With so much potential
It almost seemed like we skipped ahead for a little
We both have our reasons
And hopefully keep up appearances
I don't know what it looks like on rewind
I'm just taking what i can in the meantime

I've seen something
and i don't believe
so try not to tell me
because I'm trying to sleep

there's something they felt
just far enough away
that me reaching out
felt stupid and fake

will i never believe
like the rest of this crowd
the ones who were looking
but haven't been found

i feel better in truth
I'm coming into myself
but tonight was a regression
if you couldn't tell

It seems like too much
For me to initiate
To simply bring about
Set into motion
Make sense and explanation

So
I'm sitting down
Calm, unemotional
And most importantly
Stubborn to the core

Somehow it's better this way
So long as everything works out
Falls into place
And please the more at last

The looks get longer
And smarter
And probably at the same exact time
Both acknowledge one another

I was thinking of you
When the wire broke
and you were thinking of me
Then fell asleep
Did you dream of me?
I dreamed of you