There's no point in doing anything anymore
the only reason I'm alive
is cause' I didn't have the courage to **** myself

If resentment is a poison,
I'll drink to my death.

My self-worth is zero,
negative self-esteem
I just want to be
loved in all my dreams
fast to crinkle inward,
curl inside a ball,
life has it's ups and downs
and all I do is fall.

I've been at rock bottom
the bottom of the sea,
for what appears to me
like an eternity.

I slowly crawl upwards
while the tears roll down my eyes
knowing that I'm worthless
in and out of demise.

I can't take my life
why do I even try?
I still can't figure out
why the hell I'm alive

Life is not for living,
you just have to survive.
Seeking out the truth
whilst surrounded by lies.

Piling up the stress,
maybe I'm depressed
I feel heavy and dense,
emotions unexpressed.

I can not cry for help
because nowhere is safe
my own mind is a landfield
and people are a maze.

Having love
is something I dream about
it just feels
so impossible
and no one
understands
what it's like
to no longer
believe
it isn't real

so out of reach
to me
oh, how happy I would be
if i had it
but I might as well
just keep dreaming.

I'm always in my head.

What's even real anymore?

Living in two worlds

Stuck inside the one

That does not make me happy

What if we stayed friends

instead of enemies?

What if you never told me you loved me?

What if I could live and let live?

What if I could forget and forgive?

Don't you just want to get away

from the past and all of the pain?

People never remain the same

But I would love to change with you.

I'd love to get away with you.

I'd like to just stay with you

We can't be lovers, we can be friends

Until the very end

I'm willing to comprimise

If only you'd just be mine.