I hold you
in my mind
close to
the afterlife

teach me
how to unwind
teach me
how to rewind

you are
so divine
I am
human, blind

to the
spiritual ecstasy
so perfect next to me
vision, vision,
vision in my mind
teach me, teach me,
teach me how to die

How to die
teach me
teach me
how to die

Can you make my eyes roll to the back of my head?

when my eyes are aching and tooth is throbbing in my jaw? and I'm clenching my teeth at night and stressed out by being in love with someone who wouldn't care if

Additional thoughts:

I got eaten by a saber tooth tiger?

use my power,
use my will
to burn you against
my own grill

my own heaven,
my own hell
where you bleed out
in my jail

i'm so ******
i'm so cursed
because i like it
when you hurt

make you suffer
feel the release
the revenge
of the beast

the beast within me
bites and gnaws
gives you shivers
makes your skin crawl

widen my eyes
and open my jaw
take a chomp
grab the saw

i wont lie, i want to create a hell
and drown you in my wishing well
i wanna you hang you by a hook
let you take one last look

the reflection of your face
regret as you fall from grace.

in the prison of my mind where you stay
resentful and hateful..

It would feel so amazing
For me to die
and watch the guilt drown you

I'd do anything
I'd **** myself
Just to watch you bleed

"I grew up some sort of monster, some sort of ghost."

Not the kind of monster that hides under beds and awaits their victim, but a monster without a voice. A monster that couldn't speak. Only abused, demonized, and misunderstood. Under the face, the hood of a pretty girl, I am a darkness. I am a void. A collection of knowledge, a bunch of photographs disorganized. My True Self long gone, breeded into a psychopath. A disgusting mess, bathing in sunlight, taking in the green. Life is silent. My mind is not.