When you love, and you can't bare it any longer, when everything you shared became toxic waste and your body fills with the fluid of unknown pain. When sadness sinks into you, its weight crushing your chest and lungs. When sadness weighs you like your own flesh but more of it, and that weight of lonesomeness and pain.. You think.. How can I withstand this? Then you will hold love, like an unclaimed newborn in your arms and you'll say, Yes, I will take you and I will love again.

A car
    the ride.
A sidewalk
    the door.

Inside I can hear
People laughing in cheer.
I can't go in, not yet
A little girl runs by in a dress.

The nod
    Wooden doors.
Music starts
    Doors open.

I loose myself for the moment
Standing in-front of a commitment.
Time stops
In a memory where I drop.

    Then you show up and catch me from falling.

White walkway
    Flowers.
Wooden pews
    My dress swishing as I walk.

One man standing in a three piece suit
The whole room end up mute.
I can't help but smile
In-front of me I see my new life compile.

Like a well written poem
Now I'm ready to show him.

The Priest starts to talk
I'm so happy I can only squawk..

"I do."

    and that's the beginning
    to the happy ever after ending.

It's a merry-go-round with you
Spinning my emotions around until you're through.

When are you going to leave me alone
So I can sink in the ocean and drown on my own.

You don't need to weigh me down:
    You anchor,
         You tether,
              You cement shoes bound.

I'm getting off this emotional roller coaster ride
I've already felt like I've died.

There's no point in dragging me through
When my face, skin, and heart have already turned blue.

Oh! How hard
How hard you make this for me!

Oh! Why
Why can I not figure this out?

Oh, the hollow
The halls and chambers of my empty heart.

Oh, I see
I see that I am meant to be alone.

oh.

Confused and in a daze
Our conversation made me numb.

I just wanted your touch
A fleeting brush with your thumb.

Maybe apart is best for us
Two planets in orbit, two parallel lines that never cross.

I just don't know . . . what should I do?
Struggling with this thought.

Content is what I should be
There is no side that can be bought.

No amount of jewels, or love can sway,
No more precious time for thought.