Lost in my daydream again
a drowsy equinox.

You and I together
tangled within light,
a slow-motion reel

Our fingers shake
slightly dragging against flesh

Nerves running,
not only from touch but feelings too.

Old sayings about butterflies in my stomach,
like gravity giving way

Floating along between open kisses,
Eyelids shut from blinding light,
We longed for time.

Alone again, outside on this ragged deck, trying to sleep.
shhh goes the wind dancing though the trees, the world is singing me a lullaby.
The black lifeless water on the bay is now swaying to a song,
The wind is blowing now, making frothy white amongst the midnight black,
Lights from the other side of the bay look like silver and gold sequins split on flowing silk.
The light from the moon and stars kiss the ground almost fooling me to morning.

I do not know where I am going; where I come from; where my life is headed; but as my eyes close I have a smile on my face. I know that right now, in this moment, I'm as close to perfection as humanly possible.
My last thought before slumber.

Laying down alone, looking over the water whose black glistening depth I do not know. I think of our love; how passionate and true we are, how unwavering and pure it can be, and I wish. I wish upon the light on the lake, the tropic breeze filling my nose, the light wind kissing my skin. I wish on my life that we make it, that I make it. With someone who has qualities and love as true as yours. I lust you, every chance my mind gets to wonder.. I lust you, I need you , I can remember the feel of your hands touching the inside of my leg. I can feel your breath on my neck. I close my eyes and know your kiss, so passionate and fierce my whole body becomes weak. You're the one man I've never been able to break from. You're the one man I can't deny. You are my joy and smile, my heart and soul. I will follow you into the depths of the midnight's tropical water and live with you forever until the ends of time. You have me.

You're laying there in bed.
So close to sleep.

Then, you gasp for air,
for a second you forgot the world around you,
all the troubles.
But now that next breath,
it hurts even more than the last.

The burden of life.
Even heavier on your shoulders than before.

Tears roll down your face,
though you do not cry.

The silence is already enough to ****.

I dream of you without knowing how, or when, or where. There you are, poised in front of me. Beautiful in nature with a fire unbeknownst to all. I see no face nor physical features but I feel you. Your hand on my chest is my hand, lips so close that we share one breath.
I look at you, looking at me, thought rushing unable to be put with words.
We are at a place where I does not exist, nor you. Falling in and out of space without realizing we've moved. One body or two, it's been so long I no longer remember. One is what we've become, a single organism thriving without needing.


( Mamihlapinatapai -A look shared by two people with each wishing that the other will initiate something that both desire )

Straightforwardly.

This pressure on my chest,
I cannot quite describe.

Just a pressure, nothing more
of something missing

     There before?

Without complexities.

Not the same pain like the rest,
Getting this strange vibe.

What have I lost, misplaced,
Something forgotten

     Cross-stricken face.