My hands are trembling, heartbeat almost tempted to stop.
I'm not strong enough to hear your screams.
But you're just clawing your way to the top.
Do you see me shake when you walk by?
The fear that strikes deep in my eyes?
The thought of you tortures me at night, I toss in turn in my dreams trying to put up a fight.
Your sinful essence covers the room.
Walking like you own it and everyone's been waiting for you.
Do you see me run? Do you see me hide?
I'm not the only one you're hurting, this is soulful suicide.
You can't bribe me, I know how you lie.
You can't save me, there's no redemption in your life.
I'm ******* dying as you sit and watch me cry!
Come back to who you were and everything will be alright.
Prove you're not crazy, put down your words like knives.
Authenticity, that you are truly humane.
Show me you remember only human souls have a name.
Scream yours to the wind, don't strike out one more time.
I swear your heart is empty, but maybe I'm not right.
This is your last chance, don't put up a fight.
You may have lost a daughter, but you can always save your life.

Father quickly follows, you choose more fate than your own.
Don't feed into the hate you seen, make a break it's do or die.

Colors dance on the clouds as I lay silently watching.
A muse to be captured if only you could.
But nothings quite like the heat of the moment.
Where you can see it, smell it, touch it & hold it.
This moment so rare, so quick and so few.
I'm dazzled by the stars that are far from view.
I'm taken by them like I'm taken with you.

Somebody torn down the signs.
I look around, there are no lines drawn.
I play it off like nothings wrong, when really all you are is a pawn.
A misinterpretation of a piece of me.
I'm sorry, but nothing is as it seems.

A look in the mirror, all I see is broken dreams.
A look in the mirror and a double-take cause that can't be me...
A look in the mirror, oh how everything has changed.
This life and heart have gone mildly deranged.

Distance means nothing when your hearts out on the line.
I've been praying for you baby, I've been waiting all this time.
You hold me closer to you and our hands are intertwined.
People call me crazy cause you're always on my mind.

So I'm headed out to Colorado, with you in my rearview.
I'll be back soon though, running back to you.
You say I need not worry, you'd never walk away.
But I'm shaking in my bones, cause you're my only reason to stay.
I trust you now. Don't leave me empty-hearted. <3

To Whom It May Concern,

Silently I cry while she slaps and slurs her words.
You foolish child, you're no woman at all.
You're nothing but absurd.
You've called me names, you've bruised my entire being.
I was waiting for something to show me what you're meaning.
Why do you hate me? All I ever did was try! I try to take care of whom we love but still you're not there!
I'm fed up, I've had enough. You push me once more again.
I look your way and firmly say, if you hit, I will defend.
The power in your eyes enrages, the lioness has left her cage.
Your tearing and you're striving to tear this look right off my face.
It says " I will not lose, I will not give in."
And battles your folly pride.
I'll keep my face steady, even when the tears start to stream.
And even when you're sober, this look will remain.

It is the look of broken souls, crushed by lies & deceit.
Never have I turned away before, but today I am not the same.

Sincerely,
I've run out of cheeks.

You can see a change in my ways, in my pattern as of late.
I've turned upside down, it was always my detrimental fate.
You caught me off guard, almost lost in your embrace.
You held with your hands such a guilt ridden face.
I didn't see it coming, when I did I just hid.
I try to fight them off, but my tears seem to win.

You said it wasn't me, it was a past of long lost love.
I couldn't believe the things I heard, I knew it was never my luck.
To find someone such as you, bold, kind and strong.
I never took precautions, this time I just hoped, prayed and longed.
A mistake I should never make, I know this now for sure.
I'm just sitting here idle, waiting for the cure.

My heart is sewn on my sleeve, your name is in the stitches.
And if you ever change your mind, you'll find me here just wishing.

I can't find the words, it's been so long since I've been this way.
I never saw it coming, when you got on your knees today.
I know it's wrong, but you're oh so right.
So I let you walk out my door, I didn't even fight.

But I, can't sleep too much, rolling in my bed, it smells like you.
And everything you said, is pounding in my head. I miss you.
I understand, a mans gotta do what a mans gotta do but **** it

Please change your mind, keep me in mind. If you ran back I wouldn't hold it against you.

I drove around a few blocks, stopped at a bar and a few shots, it don't help me none.
I'm still coming, coming undone.
I didn't know when you got on your knees , it was gonna be such bad news for me.
I don't know what I'm gonna do, I'm just coming undone because of you.

I got used to your smell.
I started smiling every time, I knew you were coming around.
I let all my walls down.
So I'll drive around a couple blocks, stop at the bar, have a few shots, and idk what to do, I'm still coming undone because of... You, I don't blame you.
I'm not mad at all, but I want you to know, I've never felt this way until today.
Lovestruck since the day we met, caught up in your safety net. Im just trying to forget you.