I hate this.
This shell,
Littered with scars and bruises,
That I am forced to dwell in.
It is so weak.
It can be broken and battered so easily.
I just want to be free of it.
My soul wants to roam this retched place
Without a worthless body slowing it down.
But alas,
I am still stuck.
Forced to suffer in this shell,
Until I am pure enough,
To be released into a state of bliss.

With shaking hands,
And my vision blurred by tears,
I write a note,
To you,
To him,
To her,
To everyone.
I write,
How I wish you'd remember me,
As a bright,
Happy soul.
Not dark and withered,
As I have become.
Remember my smile when I laugh.
Not my eyes when I cry.
Remember my goofy faces.
Not my emotionless expressions.
Remember me dancing like a fool.
Not sitting alone on the side.
This is my dying wish.
Just please,
Please
Remember.

With a heavy heart,
And sad eyes,
She tells me that it's true.
I can live in this world no longer.
A world without you.
The sunrise won't have such beautiful,
Vibrant,
Colors.
The tunes the birds sing,
On misty cool mornings,
Will be nails piercing my brain.
The smell of morning coffee,
Will make tears threaten to fall from the horizons of my eyes.
These were our favorite things.
But they aren't as wonderful,
In a world without you.

Please.
Do not think you're special,
That I trusted you,
Just because I told you everything.
I thought I was never going to see you again.
I felt that my problems would leave when you did.
That is it.
That is why every time I see you,
I stare at my feet,
My heart races.
I am trying to forget who I was.
But as soon as I have just about gotten that out of my head,
You show up.
You plant that horrible seed of a memory right back into my brain.
You have done it so many times now,
That the memory is permanently etched into thoughts.
Thank you,
For making each day I wake up,
Harder than the last.

Apart,
We are so fragile.
One shove in the wrong direction,
Could send us hurdling into the darkest place in the world,
Never to be found again.

Together,
We are invincible.
Taking the world by storm.
Almost like super heros.
Except,
We are just people.
But when we are with each other,
We are so,
So
Much more than just people.

With you,
It's different.
I've only know you a short time,
But I trust you more than I trust people I've known my whole life.
You always tell me how perfect you think I am.
I thought you were just being nice at first.
But you say it
Every
Day.

I have honestly never been this happy.
I know this sounds cliché and out of a story book.
But it is so,
Amazingly,
True.

I just hope you don't walk out on me.
Like everyone else has.
You have no idea what that would do to me.
I have torn down walls I did not even know I had,
For you.
I am so vulnerable.
If you leave,
I'll fall off a cliff,
And land flat on my face.

I didn't mean to change.
It just sort of………happened.
I stopped caring.
I stopped sleeping.
I stopped feeling.
Everything just………stopped.