Remember me
when you look at the stars
and think that
At least we have those in common

Remember that
I'll love you
For as many lifetimes over
As there are stars

Some things to think about
After I leave you

I've decided

I'm in love
    with beauty

I'd like to live in music
Which is why I dance
It's the closest I can get
To feeling like a song

To see beauty break
Makes you *******
And feel as if
You should be breaking too

I can't decide
   where I went wrong
But then I realize:

   I didn't.

   You did.

I want to scream at you
But when I look at you
I love you

We laugh but's it not funny
we giggle but it's not cute.
**** hurts
and cuts burn.

I miss you
Come home.

God bless true love
God bless us for trying

Love is so cosmicly terrifying

And now I ask you
To fade away
Into a distant memory
Making me question
If we were
ever
      even
             real

I wish you lived here
In the moment
With me

And then we talk
And I hear your voice...
"You're too much a part of me
I could never let you go"
"We have too many plans
Too many places to be shown"
My pulse relaxes
My heart beats even
I remember
And you know
We're in this for a reason

Isn't it amazing
How your mind rules your body
So much so
That your simple thoughts
Can make you feel sick?

I'd like it to stop now

I'd like to be done

Ive decided I don't like hurt

I've decided that you burn

Those years ago
I thought you healed me
Closed away my anxiety.
I thought I needed you.
You told me you need me.
But I'm not your dog
I don't live for your pleasure.
Yes, I used to
But I think I've found clarity.
I can't live
With how you love me
I don't love
How you live with me.
I feel like we're not living at all
As I wait all day for one call.
But where the **** are you?
I DON'T KNOW.
You've broken my trust
Yet you still run the show.
What are our lives?
I wish I could love you tonight.
I WISH YOU WERE HOME
I WISH I WASN'T ALONE.
You've left me alone
You've left me wondering
    What is home?

Why
  can't you see I'm there?
Why
  don't you answer me?

I wonder if you're busy
Answering her instead

I JUST WANT TO TEXT YOU
I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU
THAT I MISS YOU
THAT I WANT YOU
THAT I CANT DO IT
BECAUSE I NEED YOU

I hate what I've become
I hate how much we loved
Because it ruined me
And I'll always love you
And I know you will too
SO WHY ARE WE DOING THIS?!
I haven't a clue

Years or days
months vs hours
why do we let time tell?
Where we are
and how we're doing?
Time is set
You must fit the qualification
Because Lord forbid you wed
Without proper justification
But years or days
months vs hours
Love is love
Period the end
Love is love
let it sink in
Cover you
and flow through
your head, heart,
and toes
Wash you
and spread through
your wings stretched wide
love is love
period the end
time is just a guide

And on my drunkest nights
I find myself
Remembering our love
And missing you

Whether it was true
   or false
temporary, or bull
I find myself
Still thinking of you

It was real
And you got scared
But I'd hold you hand
If you'd hold my gaze.
Days and days
   they go by
Sit and think
   and wonder why.
How I let myself fall so hard
How I let myself believe
How I let myself think
You wouldn't leave.
Ha!
You were a dream
And I was a game.
Don't come back
   But come again.

Your eyes
Read defeat
Because for the first time
Youre giving in
By opening your heart
And letting me in.

Your eyes,
I could see
Straight through
To your soul
And at the bottom
Lay the innocence
You have left.

Don't squint so much.
You have beautiful eyes.
And when you look at me,
A beautiful soul.

I've grabbed your necklace
Wrapped it through my fingers
Pulling it
Pulling you
Closer to me.
The metal's cool touch
Sweet to my chest
That usually sits on yours
Gives me a shock.
Doesn't shock me awake
Just shocks me deeper
Making all of me
Invest in the sensation
In every sensation
You're giving me.
Your necklace.
Cool to the touch
Light to the soul.
Making me want more
Which you give me.
All it takes
Is a grab of your necklace
Pulling us down
Even deeper than before.

Beer.
Within which you hide
And that which you drink.

I wish I could cool your mind
as it does your throat
as it slowly slides down.
I wish I could ease your pain
That burns in that liquor
in which you now drown.