you never drove me to the edge
but you did push me
to the point
of collapse

you always knew what to say
but never knew what to do
you always knew how
to make my entire day
but never knew how
to make do
with me and you

i love him
i love you
i love two

he's perfect
but then there's her
babydoll knows how to get it

i feel like a sinner
and to be honest
she deserves better
so does he
but still
he loves me
so does she
even though i
don't seem to
feel the same
but i do

oh god, help me
i'm in love with two
i'm not a player
i just don't know
who to choose

how anyone can
see my flaws
and still want
to see my all
i have no idea
they deserve better
both of them
since i'm
bad luck
for em'

if i knew years ago
that people would
hate me so much
i would have
done something
about my existence

used to see nothing but you
every time i walked outside
used to think of nothing but you
whenever 'our song' played
used to write about you
but hell, still i do
because i miss you
and how it used to be
we were once side by side
now we're barely here at all
the day i got lost in your love
was the day i lost myself
my self-respect, my pride
you became my world
you became my earth
you became a part
of my tragic heart
changed my outlook
on how i saw life
gave me a reason
to always smile
you made me happy
happier than i had ever been
and i became dependant
on our connection
as a source of inspiration
to keep going
to keep believing
to keep myself
from falling
worst thing is
it's all changed
we aren't us
this isn't you
this isn't me
we aren't a team
like we used to be
and it hurts so much
because i thought
true love conquered all
but unfortunately
love was my downfall

my collarbones don't show
my thighs don't have a gap
but i am trying so hard
to be proud of what i've got
even though i want to skip
every meal i put in my mouth
i am trying so **** hard
to love my body for what it is
it's a constant struggle
this disorder vs. me
still i am willing
to seek recovery
and be the winner
of this harsh battle
really am trying
to change my ways
but my thoughts
poison my mind
still, i am trying
to conquer
and win
against
this disorder
which makes me
do anything to be thin
society is a bad kind
of role model for us
it teaches girls that
size zero is better
than curves