You could make my world fall apart
Or you could give me a brand new start.
Things are going up and down
And I'm fighting for something that can't be found.
Look in my eyes and tell me you're here
'Cause it almost feels like I'm losing you, Dear.
I can tell there's something wrong in the air
And all I can do is just sit and stare.
I wish you could tell me what is on your mind
Because I hate feeling like I'm deaf, dumb, and blind.

Today you told me you want something real
And when I’m with you that’s just how I feel.
I feel real, and loved, and a great sense of pride!
When I’m with you I get all these butterflies.
I look at you and my head starts spinning
And I can’t tell who is really winning.
We agreed that it was all just pretend
But now I don’t know if I want this to end.
It’s 5am and my thoughts you still taunt
But every day it’s my heart that you haunt.
I search in my dreams but you cannot be found.
I try to scream that I love you without making a sound!
I have all of these others to occupy my time
But when I’m with you I can really unwind.
You talk like you’re ready to soon dissappear
But all I really want is for you to stay here.
My problem is, can I stay committed?
I don’t even know how you can really admitt it…
You say you still love her, but you want another?
I thought that was why we were here for eachother.
You can see us together, you’ve told me before.
Now I wish you would tell me that it’s time for more…
I think I lied and I fear that I’m losing,
Or maybe I’m just greedy, it’s all so confusing.
I don’t think I’m ready to stop all my fun,
But sometimes I wish you were my only one.

Question this and question that.
All these words seem to fall flat.
I know what you did, I know what you've done.
Why the hell haven't I grabbed the gun?
You love me, you love me, you love me, true?
Why on earth do I love you?
You'll leave me for her and I'll leave you for him.
All because of a jealous whim.
I'm done. I'm done. Why aren't I gone?
I knew I was gonna get hurt all along.
I'm so confused. What the hell do I do!
Leave or stay? Please can you choose?
I shouldn't have said it. Not so soon.
Everything's changing along with the moon.
I'm not done yet, what are we?
You've said for so long how much you love me!
Keep me please... maybe I'll change...
I wanna see what vows we'll exchange.....
Maybe I'm crazy and it just won't work.
Maybe I'm fickle and just want to be hurt.
I feel like I'm losing you and I haven't even got you.
I really, honestly, don't know what to do...

Come over here and play with me.
I need to feel some ecstasy.
come over here and play with me.
I want you to make me scream.

Come over here and use me.
I need to feel adequacy.
Come over here and use me.
I want you to be extreme.

I want you to **** me up, **** me up.
I want you to shut me up, shut me up.
I want you to give me up, give me up.
I want you to **** me up, **** me up.

Come over here and abuse me.
I need to feel like you're supreme.
Come over here and abuse m.e
I want you to make me plead.

I want you to **** me up, **** me up.
I want you to shut me up, shut me up.
I want you to give me up, give me up.
I want you to **** me up, **** me up.

The days are winding 'round and 'round.
When will I have this mental break down?
Everything will be okay.
I'm just programed to feel this way.

You want me, you've got me.
I'm your drug; like ecstasy.
You're calling, you're craving.
You don't see the way that you're behaving.

I'm your princess; so cute and frail.
I'm tired of being your ****** up fairy-tale.
I'm a binge anorexic and a promiscuous ****!
When it comes to your "love" do you think I give a ****?

Use me, snort me, get addicted.
Shoot me up like I predicted.
Tell me I'm pretty?
I'm neurotic and crazy.

You can never give me enough.
Pleasing me is just too tough.
I'll eat you up and spit you out and you'll come back for more.
Begging and pleading, as you lay upon the floor.

Shaking and shivering from your withdrawal.
You need me so bad you're willing to crawl.
Hand me the ******* bottle of *****.
Neither of us has anything else to lose.

Let me help you crush those pills.
Can't wait to see what else spills.
Get a ******* grip on reality.
You will never be able to handle me.

I'm a selfish ***** with panic attacks.
I'm a seductive ***** that always wants you back.
Vampire or victim, you decide.
The truth is really all mine to hide.

This rose has far too many thorns.
Yet you insist on coming back for more.
Tearing your flesh, and bleeding upon the floor.
Just to hold such beauty in your hands.
This is insanity I cannot understand.

So, this emptiness inside of me.
It's trying to consume all that I used to be.
All I'm asking is to feel again.
All I'm asking is to care again.

So, I'm trying to rebuild my heart.
This pile of junk is just the start.
All I'm asking is to want again.
All I'm asking is to love again.

So, this apathy is getting rather boring.
My head and my heart keep warring.
All I'm asking is to see again.
All I'm asking is to will again.

Who needs depression and angst?
I don't want that (I don't want that).
Feeling nothing isn't much better.

I'm not used to this heart being so.
Broken and empty (broken and empty).
I hope you know I'm trying to love you.