How do you smile when it feels like the butterflies in your stomach turned into termites? How do you laugh when they start gnawing at your heart?

every day
i roll over
onto your
sweat soaked
side
of the bed
and i
remember
you thrashing
around
kicking
whimpering
all night
and every day
i wonder
why

good moments gone
bad times thrive
a true love lost
we all fall to despair

I told myself I would never do it again
as my body sank into my best friend's bed

"are you okay?"
                 "yeah, you?"
"yep."

the trip home was silent
and the sedan suddenly turned into an eighteen wheeler,
the rear view mirrors sticking out like Dumbo's ears.

we are in a cartoon.
I am convinced we are in a cartoon
and we are flying

             Dumbo could fly, too.

through euclid, and vernon, and lund
we are mute
and we are
happy

The drops of sand
were blood
falling to the floor
of her hourglass
figure.