While I lay in his arms
I'm as happy as can be
Well, atleast that's how it seems.
Deep down, though,
I know I wish he was you
But there is not a thing I can do
You moved on
Cut me off
Left me behind
Believe me, if I could,
I would press "rewind"
Go back to the way it was
When I still had your trust
There one thing I have to blame
As always, it is lust.
I miss the days I spent with you
The nights on the phone
when I talked to you
You made my days so much brighter
And better
So I'm just sitting here wallowing
Writing this letter
You left me, you forgot me,
I fell for you
And I shattered
But then again, I guess the past
Doesn't even matter
But it still hurts
Knowing you're gone forever
But maybe one day
There will be
A change in the weather
If that day ever comes,
And I cross your mind
remember it was your decision to leave me behind.
No, I'm not angry,
I'm just full of pain
I'm trying tos see the sunshine
But I'm stuck in the rain
I now know to keep my guard up
And never let it down
I swear to ******* god
No one will ever find a way around
Because you taught me that trust
Is hard to find
And wounds and scars and broken hearts
Are impossible to bind

Oh mary j
You make things okay
I love you beyond words.
I love to light you up
Watching you burn
Baby you make my world turn
Hits from the ****
Tokes from the bowl
Miss Mary jane
You make me feel whole
You will be my best friend
Until I die
Without you I could not survive
Everyday, I give thanks to god
Me and mary
Are like two peas in a pod
Well my lungs and my bones are craving
Your smoke
Ill see yall later I'm gonna go ****

I am something everyone searches for
No matter who you are,
Deep down, you crave me.
I can make your sun shine
Or I can bring you grey clouds
I can make you feel high
I can make you feel on top of the world
Like nothing could ever harm you,
Like you're invinvible
Or I can tear you down so low
I can make you do things you swear
You'd never do
I can turn the strongest people weak
The bravest people into cowards
I can be the reason behind your smile
When you wake up
Or I could be the reason you cry at night
When your head finally hits the pillow
What am I?

if you look into the mirror
and you don't break down and cry
you better thank the so called god above
that you don't want to die

you are blessed
unlike the rest
who cry themselves to sleep
because they hate their ****** reflection
they just want to love themselves
sick and tired of all the objections

why is it that
I see deep inside
I am nothing but worthless
why am I even alive?

Out there somewhere
There's a girl with soft hair
That falls halfway down her spine
She dances with the stars until they're aligned

She sings with the moon
Convinced that the sun will come back soon
But she's always left in the darkness

She says "that's ok"
Because things always go astray
Yeah sometimes things get in the way

She's innocent and unaware
Quite frankly she doesn't care
She just want to be free
That's why baby lives for the
lsd



2013 © O'Brien Devin Brielle

If the sun didn't shine
If the moon didn't beam
If the salty ocean didn't gleam
If the rain didn't drizzle
From out of a cloud
If the peak of a thunderstorm
Didn't make a sound
If lightening didn't strike
If snow wasn't white
If the stars in the black sky
Gave off no light
If I still had you
None of this would ever even phase me
You keep me sane
Yet you drive me crazy
If the earth didn't spin
If the galaxies didn't go on forever
Our souls
Could still never be dissevered

2013 © O'Brien Devin Brielle

Dwelling on the past
I'm not sure the reason
The best times of our lives
Pass by as if they were seasons
And the painful  times drag on
For such an unreasonable amout of time,
Acting as if they were a punishment
For an unforgivable crime.
You cannot relive
Memories
But you ponder them within
Nostalgia creates a bitter sweetness
Of the places you have been

So sail away
In the calm ocean of your mind
And Think of all the good times
That you had to leave behind.

I hate you
Yet I dream about you

And when I awaken in the middle of the night

I ache for you

And when the morning sun shines through the cracks of my window in the early day

Deep down inside me

I wish you had stayed

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Your eyes;
They are not blue
But I'll compare them to the ocean
If I want to
They surely do remind me
Of the stirring of the waves crashing down
On the sand
But baby, I don't think
I could ever understand
Because when I look deep within them
My mind gets so lost
But I'm going to uncover you
Whatever the cost
I've never seen such
Sad, sad
Eyes
So dark with such a
Familiar surmise.

I close my eyes
(there are tears in my eyes)
I let him touch me
(I don't want him to touch me)
We smoke ****
(but you're all that I need)
He traces his finger tips down my body
(I miss the way you'd feel my body)
He kisses me softly
(I taste your lips)
He gazes into my eyes
(I miss looking into your eyes)
He tells me I'm perfect
(You made me feel perfect)
He lays me down on the bed
(You're in my head)
He takes off my clothes
(You made me feel whole)
He gives me that look
(You could read me like a book)
He thrusts inside me
(I wish it were you beside me)
He makes me feel amazing
(I hated you for changing)
Then, he is done
(You said you were done)
He kisses my face
(No one can take your place)
He says goodbye
(You said goodbye)
Now I'm alone
(Please come back home)

Gently
And at that exact moment
I felt the comfort and love
Surround me
As you came into my life.
You made me realize
Who I am
Who I am as a person
Oh, my dear,
My dear love,
Let me know that you will guide me
Through the dark
Past the demons.
I am too naiive to be on my own.
Looking past your flaws
Is like finding the sun
On a very cloudy day
There is that one spark in you,
You just have to look beyond
All the grief
And the suffering

I'm awake
Its nearly 2:30 am
And once again, I dreampt of you
Your eyes
They will always possess me
And I can feel your voice
Giving me chills, flooding me,
And piercing through my black soul,
Full of sorrow and full of despair.
By this, you create a feeling of ecstacy
Swimming through my veins
And shattering my bones
This is why I awake at nearly 2:30 am
Simply just to write songs about you
Simply just to get you off my mind.
Inhale me,
Let me takeover your every breath.
Flooding into your lungs,
You are now mine.
Surely until I fade away
Into thin air
And leave nothing but ashes
On the ground.
Spill out everything you're filled with;
Who knows whether your glass is half empty
Or half full
Now its on the ground
And that's okay,
Because I'm on my hands and knees
Cleaning it all up.
You remind me of stain glass windows in a church;
Some see your beauty, on the inside and out,
But they only notice when the sun gleams through your colors and cracks,
Showing off such vivid and lovely colors.
Some people,however,
They don't see your beauty. The can't fathom it.
They're the ones who throw rocks at you,
Leaving you shattered into
A million pieces
On the floor,
Not able to be loved,
Not able to be appreciated.
But, while you're that shattered mess
On the floor,
Let it be known
That I am the one
On my knees
With my fingers cut and bleeding
Picking up every shattered or broken
Piece of you
And I will mend you back together
I will make you feel whole
I will make you feel special
Because you are.
Look me in the eyes;
I'm not sure whether they remind me
Of the sound of the rippling waves in the salty ocean on a hot summer day
Or the smell of the smoking flames of a bonfire on a warm july night
Either way,
They set my soul at ease.
Things are impermanent.
We all know this too well.
Roaring fires turn to embers
Embers turn to ashes
That soon blow away into thin air.
This is why our love is not like fire.
Our love cannot be described.
"Nothing lasts forever"
Our love
Is nothing
Our love
Is forever.

2013 © O'Brien Devin Brielle

I love you deeper than the ocean,
farther than fish can swim,
I love you as high as the stars beyond our sky,
oh the happiness that you bring.
Love is such a complicated thing
I just could never understand,
I'd never waste my time on any boys
or let them ever hold my hand.
When I look into your eyes
its not like the others I've ever seen,
when I look in your eyes I see the whole world, I feel as if I'm in a dream.
Is this real? Is it true? I can't even comprehend,
all I know is I dream of being in your arms until the very end.
Time ticks on, the days drag on, and I grow fonder of who you are,
in this dark black sky that is my life, you're the one and only shining star
who guides me through my times of sadness, hopelessness, and despair,
truly without any doubts,
you're the only one who cares.
I've never had a man look at me the way that you do,
it seems as if I'm seeing the world as if it is brand new.
As I lay down before I go to sleep,
I pray to the god above us that my heart, you'll always keep
. I felt like a flower in a vase,
slowly but surely withering away,
but you are the water that was poured into me,
and kept me alive, don't you see?
without you, love, I could not be,
my darling without you, I wouldn't breathe.
without you my love, surely I would cry,
my darling without you, surely I would die.


2013 © O'Brien Devin Brielle