This new young generation
Running every new nation
Creating new modern laws
And showing modern flaws
Here is my honest opinion
Made by my own decision
This generation is a wreck
Like, really, what the heck
People think slacking works
Or it is okay to bully the dorks
Pregnancy at a young age is right
It is okay to have *** every night
This generation is so wrong
I feel like I do not belong
I don't drink or smoke anything
I don't treat people like nothing
This generation is thrown away
I'm just waiting for the break of day
I feel like I do not belong in the present
But in the yesterday far in the distance
There are people like me out there
I just want to leave, I do not care
I want to leave this insane generation
And create my own new delegation

I miss all of those deep feelings
Of caring so much for someone
Telling them "I love you so much"
Thinking and dreaming about them
I miss thinking about them all day
Nonstop thoughts drown my head
About how beautiful she is to me
I imagine how other people see us
"They are such a beautiful couple"
"They are so cute together" I imagine
I wish I had all of these feelings back
Sleeping well at night without a fright
Relaxing days go in to peaceful nights
Only if I have all of these feelings back
But, I do still have some of these feelings
They never left my dying heart and soul
I often still think and dream about her
She still haunts me when I tell her to leave
I still have nightmares of you and death
I can't destroy these now unwanted feelings
I only wish now, I had someone else to see
Someone else to call beautiful and sweet
I wish that now, I can find happiness again
And regain all of the lost feelings I once had

The truth about me is plain and simple
I'm just a shattered mess in need of help
My heart has been stolen from my body
Locked away and never returned to me
I always have a smile on my hidden face
I hide my true emotions from the world
No one knows how I truly feel in any way
I'm broken in search for a fantastic day
I don't know when this day will show up
Not sure if it will ever appear to my eyes
My life is full of lies that feeds my pain
Losing control, nearly making me insane
The truth is I do it all to myself unwillingly
I feed my body with pain to strengthen it
I'm not physically strong by any means
But I am mentally strong it sure seems
I have no control on my life right now
I'm on a bull losing total control of itself
It's unclear what I'll be able to achieve
To be successful this agony must leave
Maybe the music isn't helping life much
Drug and alcohol references drag me in
I still don't drink or do any kind of drug
I'm the type that just tears away the rug
I don't take my anger out on any others
I take it all out on myself and myself only
I generally don't accept help from anyone
In fear of dragging them in as well alone
I don't like who I am today and that's clear
I want to be the old me once more in life
Maybe this time I can not ***** up again
And then I'll be freed from this hated pain

No matter how hard I try
I am never fully satisfied
I never think I've done enough
To help pull you out of the rough
I am doing the best I can
I try hard then it hits the fan
I don't think I'm trying hard
I want to protect you, stand guard
I want to do anything for you
You're close to my heart like few
But the harder I try at all
I always end with a deeper fall

I often tend to wonder why
Why I even think about you
As I look for hope in the sky
I can never find anything new
I could be overly sympathetic
Or just easily be able to forgive
I am simply just really pathetic
I must push to continue to live
I have compassion in my head
Forgiveness is in my cold heart
Without it I'd probably be dead
Never again with a fresh start
Trying to forget your presence
That will forever be incomplete
My mind seems to feel dense
Clearly full of undesirable defeat
Moving on from you is my key
I can't live life remembering you
Although you've really helped me
I must move on to someone new
It's going to be an agonizing ride
Trying to push you out far away
These memories I must now hide
Maybe to see again another day
A necessity finding someone new
Not as easy as it is in my dreams
Not clear when I can forget you
I need someone seal loose seams
I'm not sure who this will soon be
I do not even know where to start
Finding someone to make me happy
Will heal my lonely and cold heart

No one will know
When the end will occur
This unknown foe
Will ****** out in a blur
I wish I knew when it’d come
So I can make my last words special
Sing to you in a gentle hum
That I love you and that’s all
I want to pour my heart out
I want to go climb a mountain
And then give out a loud shout
Proving my love to you in the rain
But no one knows when it’ll occur
Snapping out at us in a blinding blur
Ending life whenever it shall choose
Fate always wins, and you shall lose

As time passes by
I sulk in my misery
I try hard not to cry
But it destroys me
Losing many tears
My soul is now dry
As over these years
I continuously die
From birth to death
I feel pain repeated
Like I am on ****
Until I am defeated
I fight what I can
And avoid the rest
I am a lonely man
With a heavy chest
I see no end in sight
Life moves too fast
I must rest my soul
To end, good night

I am not talking of the dreams
For what you want to do in your life
The ones that occur in your sleep
But over the past couple of nights
I have encountered unwanted dreams

A few nights ago
I dreamt of being in a plane
Going to see the person I love
And the plane crashed in a horrific manner

Then there is last night’s dream
I drove 1500 miles to see the one I love
And when I arrived, I held her in my arms
And she soon passed away
Sobbing while cradled in my arms

I don’t want these dreams
They’re showing me unwanted ideas
Unwanted predictions of the future
I wish the happy dreams would come back...

It was on a Wednesday night
I talked to you earlier that day
Getting involved in a relationship
We both knew what was to come
We knew that you were moving
Yet we decided to pursue it all
Even though it seemed wrong
We decided to just get together
We were ready for the challenge
We were going to move forward
As one from miles from the other

I'm clueless at the moment
At what exactly went wrong
I'm unsure of what to do now
Cause feel like I don't belong
You say we can still be friends
Not the first time that was heard
Last time it was a complete joke
Ending in me shattered and hurt  
Now, I don't feel as much pain
It all seems to fly over my head
It still continues to steadily rain
It seems to not stop till I'm dead
I can only assume it was my fault
I did something to turn it all around
I can't waste time wondering why
When I know nothing can be found
I must move on once more in life
And I'm sure it will not be my last
Because life is full of many surprises
Where you can't be living in the past

No matter how hard I try
I can’t get you off my mind
It’s something I can’t explain
A certain connection I have to you
It’s something that money can’t buy
Something I don’t wish to leave behind
Can be wonderful or can put you in pain
But I know in my opinionated view
What I’m experiencing is love
Something created from high above

A commonly asked question upon the masses
Is what does the word love really mean?
The feelings we get when times passes
When we are with someone close and serene
Those feeling of happiness flowing through our veins
Getting rid of all of the troubles and little pains
The want and desire to be with someone at any moment
Staying with that certain someone, so both remain content

I put together all pros and cons
I consider any new consequences
Through being awake and yawns
I think more on this very decision
At times I wish to ask her something
Then the next I despise the thought
I think about how it can create a ding
Or even a dent in this shifting fault
I wish there's an easy way to decide
Instead of thinking alone while I hide
While the water contributes to a tide
That'll slowly make me reveal my side

It was a hot fall morning
A silent time on the bus
On a trip with the band
And me just sitting alone
You were just watching me
I was bored out of my mind
And then you talked to me
We got to know each other
We found many similarities
And by the end of the day
I had made a new friend

If you ever take a tumble
I will always pull you out
I will search through rubble
If you don't give a shout
When you fall, I'll be there
I will heal any of your injuries
I will heal any scrape or tear
When you fall, I'll have the keys
I will always be there to catch you  
Like no one else was ever able to
With one last thing that I like to call
I am here to catch you when you fall

As the first flake hits my lips
A cold sensation flows through my veins
Continues all the way to my finger tips
Until they tingle, with little pains
The cold wind tenses up my face
As I bundle up to remain warm
The snow starts to fall at a constant pace
These small flakes meaning no harm
This cold and snowy winter day
Is beautiful in every single way

The wind blows swiftly
Whistling free on this night
No resistance shown

Whenever I am with you
My worries will fly away
Whenever you're in view
It brightens up my day
Any time we are together
I feel like I am able to fly
Everyday I feel lighter
Until we say goodbye
I am relaxed as can be
I dream to touch the sky
When you're by my side
I feel like I will never die

Sitting here late at night
I think about you, and I worry
I hope my assumptions are right
And not visions that are blurry
I worry about you everyday
I hope that you’re safe
Worried and afraid in every way
But not losing hope or faith
I hope you’re not feeling sick anymore
But I have a feeling that’s not true
As now the tears in my eyes begin to pour
Dripping down my face, as I worry about you

I worry so much about you
Just being simple and clear
I know very little and few
Without you anymore here
I fear all the negative outcomes
I fear the pain you go through
I fear you unhappy and alone
Although none of that fear is new
You may wonder why I still fear
We aren't together, yes I sure know
I do still think this feeling is queer
But there's nowhere for my fear to go
When I try to talk to you, it's to help
But when I do, it seems you no longer care
I know other worries will soon develop
But giving up on you now is not really fair
If you wish to still talk, I am always here
For you are my Polish Buddy, my dear

I try hard at all I do
Yet I always fail
I try to pay attention
Yet I still doze off
I try to walk proud
Yet I slouch in pain
I try to be composed
Yet I break down
I feel worthless now
No value left in me
I am a wasted soul
Walking amongst the world

Every single night
I think about your face
So happy and bright
Perfect in all the little ways

So beautiful and sweet
There’s one thing that is right
No matter how far we be
I know you will look beautiful tonight

I think about you every day
Think about us living life
Perfect in every single way
Living free of all the strife

How can I not think of you
It’s impossible to push it aside
Keeping the memories fully through
And not leaving a little detail behind

I love you with all my heart
And that is the full truth
I don’t want to fall apart
Because we’re still in our youth

Want to know what I love about you? I love just being around your unique attitude. I love seeing you beautiful face. I love hearing your sweet voice. You are absolutely beautiful Madelyn. If someone tells you otherwise, punch them in the face or tell them they need glasses because they CLEARLY can't tell that you're beautiful. Just kidding, don't punch them or insult them, that's just not nice and I know you're not a mean person. Just be you. Stay the beautiful, amazing and sweet Madelyn that I know and love. Don't change to try to impress me or impress others because you already impress many people, including me. I love everything about you, and most importantly, I love YOU

You may have an idea
You may have a thought
But I'm like North Korea
Everything? I think not
You don't know my experience
You don't know my background
My story exceeds your intelligence
The mysteries while I'm not around
You don't know what people say
You don't know how people live
You hear something new everyday
And you have no intelligence to give
So back away from lives other that yours
And learn about yourself before taking tours

Thinking about your decision you made
Just the other night, deciding to break up
Hope to see each other had continuously fade
Us both being weary, you saying this is enough
Both of us were constantly over-stressed
I knew the time would come, like it was a past vision
But you are trying to put that stress to its own arrest
And in saying that, to break up, I respect that decision

It seems like life now is great
Your life consumed by dance
You seem to have a full plate
Seconds will not have a chance
You've posted a few photos
And there's a smile on your face
If it's true or not, nobody knows
It's just sitting perfectly in place
I don't want to intervene anymore
It's your life and I intend to stay out
Ignore all I say and continue to soar
I'm always nearby, just give me a shout
You're happy now it sure seems to be
And if to remain that way, forget about me
Because your living life as a women so free
Flying high above where others cannot see

You are definitely right
I have to move on now
I'll go to sleep tonight
With a brand new vow
Not to dwell on the past
Focus on what's to come
She will not be the last
I no longer feel numb
Reinvigorated with life
I see with new visions
New ways through strife
Making better decisions
I'm no longer indecisive
I'm thankful for the life hacks
You have shown me to live
Without dealing with setbacks
Now we must no longer talk
Because we must both forget
Well, just I have to now walk
You're already through all of it
Bye

It flows freely out from my lips
Like water down a waterfall
Down through the rock tips
A lasting impression on us all
It is a beautiful sound to hear
Soft as a feather on the ground
It’s even sweeter with you near
So all can hear from all around
I say your name to myself everyday
Thinking back to how you speak
I then forget what to exactly say
My voice going numb and very weak
I love the sound of your very name
But each passing day, it brings me shame

No matter how it appears
It’s always the same to me
Shining through all the tears
Showing that you’re breaking free
Your smile being clear or mischievous
It still will brightens the room
Being totally innocent or devious
It still erases all my undesirable gloom
No matter what it should mean
It’s always the same in my eyes
Happiness and sadness and in between
Remains the same, from the smiles and cries
No matter what anyone else thinks
I know that it’s beautiful in every way
However, due to the distance and few links
I don’t get to see that smile everyday
I wish to see it sometime soon however
But it really seems totally inevitable
No matter how much someone is clever
They know that now it’s near impossible
Despite us not being together anymore
I wish that I would be yours until the end
But our love is now flying out the door
Telling this story to others, it hard to comprehend