One second you say you like me
You wish I was by your side again
Just to comfort you once more
Saying you cried when we broke up
Now you're asking me about other guys
About what you can do to get them
Whether or not they like you back or not
Saying this guy is attractive, it hurts
I just don't understand you right now
Am I just oblivious to the facts at hand?
Still in some uncontrollable state of denial?
Or am I just in over my head and out of it?
I just don't know anymore, I'm confused
I know long distance won't work out now
We can't wait many years until after college
We are both only seniors in high school
Dealing with options most people don't face
Whether or not to move on for good or what?
I just can not read you anymore it seems
You first started out as a Dr. Seuss book
But now you're some thousand page novel
So many details I'm not picking up it seems
Looking at the big picture, I like you, you like me
But will it work out? I sure in hell hope so...

I can't believe I'm saying this right now
But I honestly feel happy again today
Maybe it's just reliving good memories
Or maybe it's that I'm escaping them
Either way, I don't think I'm happy, I know
I can just feel it inside my breathing body
The blood flowing quickly throughout
And my heart pounding when I talk to her
My mouth taking shape of a settle smile
I miss these times, but now they are back
I'm talking to her again after such a long time
She said she still likes me after all this time  
It has been almost two years since the end
And she now tells me she really likes me still
This truly making life more bearable than before
I can't wait until after college to see her again
Maybe sooner on spring or summer break
But I know I will see her again, just wait
Because that first embrace will be majestic
After all these months, we are BOTH happy

It's not a word I really use often
Especially calling someone beautiful
Sure I think some girls are attractive
But to be beautiful is different in my eyes
Some people think it's to talk about looks
I say it's mainly personality and looks
To be beautiful in my eyes is difficult
I have only told one girl she's beautiful
And it's because it was the absolute truth
I have called other girls pretty recently
But I haven't said they're beautiful
And it's nothing against them, honestly
I just say one much have great personality
And a great amount of self confident
Along with this thing called beauty
In order to be called beautiful in my mind
Will I call someone else beautiful again?
Most likely, just when the time is right
And when I find the right person to say
"Hey, you are an absolutely beautiful person"
"And don't change a single thing about yourself"
It will happen sometime, maybe not today
But eventually I'll say she's beautiful

So many pretty girls I know
And I wish I wasn't so lonely
Do I want to ask one out?
I am not really sure right now
There is the cute blonde
She has a great personality
I have known her for many years
But have I waited too long for her?
Then there is the first of 3 brunettes
She has such a lovely smile
And she has wonderful hair
But we don't talk much in person
However, it's nonstop here online
Does she like me but we are both shy?
Then there is the second brunette
It has been on and off with her
Some moments I really like her
Then others I forget she exists
She often will hug me at school
But that really is all there is
Other than when we went to the mall
Is there a connection? Was there ever one?
Then there is the last of the brunettes
We don't really talk much anymore
But it used to be all the time it seemed
For quite some time, I didn't exist to her
But then I crawled back into her life
She has beautiful eyes that see your soul
And that laugh that is just adorable
But I know that I can not have her...
Is this just proof I can't find anyone?
I have decided to just remain single for now
But I feel like loneliness haunts me again
I want to find happiness once more
And it is hard for me to come by now
As a relationship truly makes me happy
But right now, I don't think I can be in one
It's a mix of I'm scared of heartbreak
And maybe there is also some embarrassment
I'll find it one day, but right now I suffer