I am D.D. of Forever
Dually Desired
And just one of three
If you can guess where I stand
I will meet you there
On the island of The Ancients
Safe and Safe and Sounding
So fine

Wild for you to notice                                                     Hello again...
Inside my beat up brains                                              How could I never
I scream for silence                                                         Be where I
For silence... I make no fuss                                          Fall I could
If you've ever known                                                      Never see or
What it's like to scream                                                 Know just how
And not make a sound                                              Much you meant

                                                        To me
                                                         You are  
                                                       The same
                                                      As always
                                                     As before
                                                       As above
                                                     You never
                                                       Did change

Quiet, spacious racing
Familiar faces placing
Curious looks inside my eyelids
To be brought home again.
So hold me now, you're...
Holding me now
I am the one to be loved
And broken by your embrace

You leave my mind teeming with thoughts
Like lavender glittering on a ridge
Today, like us, is magic
And I get the feeling we've been here before
While I watch the raindrops pelt the floor
This long road whetted with rubber,
Longer than I remember
We're here, then home, then there,
Longing for

It's all a dream
And I'm not sleeping
I'm not sleeping in
So hard to see
What you've been keeping
You've been keeping from me
Because all I want is to talk to you
But I can't breathe
It's like I'm tasting
Defeat
Now I Can't Be
Even if I could tell you
I wouldn't even speak

I Don’t Know
And I don’t think I ever have
Known what really matters to me
Sometimes I do but it doesn’t make much of a difference anyway
I’m no better than I was before
And I don’t think I will ever be
Anything more than just another
Beginning without an end
How did I ever get so lost?
Walking down the wrong path.
Refusing to listen to your true self.

I can remember snapshots of color
Images wrapped in VHS tape and
Forever frozen and left to crystallize in plastic bins
Sips of tea like tiny raindrops christening my lips
Forming mornings and memories anew
A slew of
mournings and memories
Of the only acceptable displays of emotion being at funerals
Where I would feel hot tears slink down my face and onto the floor of the coat closet
The only place that I could feel comfortable expressing how I felt over someone I never knew
I don’t think anyone would have minded
But then again
I Don’t Know

For you I hold up half the sky
And all I can smell is rain
Thank you for watching
Thank you for waiting
I have been
Patient
Long Enough
Drowning here alone
The nature of love
Is to steel the…
I wonder if we’re…
I won’t shy away from your
Shimmering crystal perfection
I only wish to be
Swallowed whole
And pass away into the dilapidated sunset
Shaking boldly at the frozen moon
As cool drops shake one another loose
And the morning sun brings the same
As it never was

End of the road
No time to cry
Only in silence and memory
Will I see you again
Cut raw like hands in winter
My mind searches for time immemorial
To know, to know, to search
Through light and dark
I swallow Heaven once more