My eyes hurt
I'm losing breath
My body is weak
I can't move

This feels like walking through a rainstorm
As I'm trying to reach my favorite place
It is the cold temperature
The hard push from the fast raindrops
That make me doubt that I'll even get there

I just feel like dropping to the ground
Or reaching another place that won't be half as good as where I wanna be
How do I deal with this?
Who else is there to see?
What else is there to do?

I can only stand alone
Stand beside you
Stand behind you

I can only look at you
Look at your words
Look at your actions

I can only believe in you
Believe in your decisions
Believe in your efforts

I can only love you
Love who you are
Love who you're going to be

I can only have faith
Have faith in how you keep your head up for yourself
And have faith in how you keep your head up for your family

I can only accept
Accept that we're different
Accept that we both good

I can only learn
Learn from you
Learn from me

I can only stand
Stand and watch
Stand and smile

I know how I feel.
I'm just too lazy to describe all of it through text; since there is so much to put down.

Feelings are never complicated.
I don’t want to describe my feelings for you as complicated.
We can just use the term ‘sad.’
My feelings for you aren’t sad itself, but when you listen to it as a whole you would see how sad it seems.

My feelings display how scared, paranoid, and worried I am.
As if I know what to do, but I’m not fully sure of how much I can’t do it, or if I would even do it at all.
My feelings show how ambitious and optimistic I am.
They reassure myself of how much heart and peace I have.
My feelings express how hopeless I am.
A hopeless romantic is all that it means.
I only say “I don’t know,” because I’m either afraid of facing the outcome, or too lazy to put my time into something that requires so much analysis.
I have patience and empathy, but to actually identify this whole bunch that I deal with daily is just so overwhelming.

We have reasons why our feelings can be described as ‘complicated.’
Whether we have contradicting ideas (not everyone can be so sure of what they’re feeling, so they try to choose the middle side and make both ideas useful), or we just describe them in a way that others won’t be able to follow.

I just don’t know for my feelings right now.
I haven’t even given myself time to sort them out because when I do, my thoughts became scattered and I just lose my ability to handle them.
It’s not that I don’t care, but I just wish I had help when trying to figure them out.

I want to give up, but I don’t.
So I just end up putting them to the side, and just take a nap.
Now excuse me, I’m going to take a nap.

There are time where I want to leave, because the pain gets worse.
There are times when I feel the need to stay, because deep down you're worth it.
I'm only hurting because I care.

For the details of how you look. From the little crater's to your face, to the veins that pop out of your arms.

And the details of what you say.
From your smart remarks said to the class, to the sarcastic comments addressed to me.

I get mad because I'm jealous.
I get quiet when I'm discouraged.
I get happy because you're here.
I get loud when I know we're okay.

There are times when I want to hold you forever, because you're warm and I know it's legit.
There are times when I want to turn my back to you, because that's what you sometimes to do me.

It's not fair.
I want it to be equal, or at least know that it really is there.

Knowing that you're for me is different from when you show that you're for me.

Hold me in front of the world.
Am I worth it? Am I worth the risk?
Although our  love behind closed doors is true.
Is it not worthy of the first degree expression outside of those doors?

Let me know. Am I worth the simple acts that the most truest couples tend to express?

I know it's hard because we're different. But is such fear worth overtaking all instincts of showing feelings?

With a night like this:
I’ve never felt so strong.
I’ve never felt so content.
I’ve never felt so warm.
I’ve never felt so in love with myself.

With a night like this:
I really miss you.
I really love you.
I really accept you.
I really hope nothing but the best for you.

With a night like this:
I’m not tired.
I’m not sad.
I’m not stressed,
I’m not at the point where I’m gonna give up.

With a night like this:
I’m good.
I’m well assured.
I’m safe.
I’m someone who I never thought I can be.

With a night like this:
I understand.
I feel.
I breathe.
I take the time to appreciate a night like this because I know that there will not be another.

At least a long while before a night like this comes around again.

You can never fix or save someone
You can only love them
Your love will keep them company
Your love will give them a home

I wish, oh how I wish
I can provide you a home again
My advice won’t always help
My hands won’t always repair
For my heart can only love

You are a mystery I want to solve
A sense I want to feel
The book I want to read
A song I want to sing

Maybe one day you’ll let in me in further than the last time
I don’t mind looking through the darkness that lies inside of you
There’s no light switch, so let me build one.
I will feel my way through

I can show that my worry isn’t a worry
Easier said than done
But it’s better shown
I love me enough for the both of us

I normally don’t promise, but I do on this one
It’s hard because I don’t know everything
But then again it’s good not to know everything

The warmth of another human being
The love to and from another soul
The feeling from the heartbeat
The anticipation for their next breath

One day, one year
Maybe never again
Acceptance is the answer
It’s never easy, but it always helps