Holding on to something I believed
Holding on to something real
Lately I can't breathe
No speaking, I can't feel

Nothing makes sense anymore
Completely blurring
Lines running together
As I cry from the hurting

Waiting
While the hardness and cold sets in
Numbness, leave this pain behind
Unfeeling, so life can begin

The hours have been spent
Dead and gone
I reach for you at night
And find that I'm alone

I dream of you
Even when I'm not sleeping
At night I toss and turn
Soaking my pillow with my weeping

I look at the pieces
Scattered across the floor
Paralysed by pain
I won't survive through much more

As the days go by
Harder it gets
Memories running through my head
A love I can't forget

I wake
To the sound of your voice
The sweet smell of your skin
To be crushed when I see
It's all an illusion.

I feel nothing for life
I desire no more
Only to give up
Since there is no one to live for

All those things
You said
All those promises
You made
Are empty lies
That will never fade

Your words repeat
Never ending in my head
Hearing constantly
Whispers said

I want nothing more
Than to forget you
But I fell in love
It felt so true...

I wait for you
To realize your mistake
And love me again
Dreaming of all the
Promises you could make

So here I am
Waiting for a love that will never come
Dying on the inside
For me there is no one

All the things that once made me smile
Now make me sick deep inside
You're everywhere I look, I cannot get away
There is nowhere for me to hide

You broke my heart
I promise, someone will break yours
Then you'll think back to the girl
That risked it all for you
And never looked back
You'll wish you never burned the bridge
That connected her heart to yours

True love comes once in a lifetime
You threw yours away
When everyone's gone you'll dream of my kiss
And know you should've stayed

Watch the horizon on fire, red hot embers coarsing through my veins.

Watch the sky turn red as the world ignites under my fingertips
As ash floats by I can taste chaos on my lips.

The winter cold can't stop me,
this heat inside is my soul's entity.
Melt the ice, set you free.
Inflame your heart, set a fire with my eyes.
Engulf you, be hypnotized.

Hypnotized, traumatized.
This little fire won't die inside,
Of me, of me
I'll make you bleed
With the cut of my words
And the sting of my reason
And show your face
To the world, i'll hold it on a silver plate
Expose your shame, expose your name
And you will take all the blame
For the offense and consequence are always the same.

Tasting this bittersweet,
Flavor of victory,
Accept your defeat.
Infiltrated your defense, retrieved your love,
Without regard and loss of sense.
Holding tightly, grasping your hips.
Pulling you lightly,caressing your lips.
Give in to the power, the control, just say yes.
Until that hour, you'll have no rest.
Breathing down my neck, this passion of mine.
Lust so strong, nowhere else will you find.
But here I wait,
Patiently i abide.
Waiting for our fate, as i burn inside.

And by burn I mean,
I breathe gasoline
To scream fire on the shore
And burn down every door
Where you'll find no safety in the arms of sleep
And when you hear my name i hope your knees get weak
And you tremble under the weight of gravity
So when you close your eyes darling think of me,
Breathe in sulfur and see my face
Just remember my touch was like delicate lace.
So when your hands move down her fragile curves
I know you'll remember me and feel the burn
Of my own touch through your fingertips
I wish your name never passed through my lips.

Like a needle in my arm
Injection flow through me
Your spirit gets me high
I soar on your insanity
Inhale your life
Activate my pulse
Remove the knife
I was dead from this loss -
Of love within
Our bodies evidence
Of our secret sin
Intoxication of my soul
Devoured from the inside out
No longer whole
The cliff of heartbreak under my feet
I jump to embrace
Death so sweet
Falling through the air
Falling for you
Tell me, do you care
That I die for you
Looking at this reflection
I see another face
A masquerade, a deception
The woman I was
Gone without a trace
Masks I put on
Shield what's hidden deep
But I can't hide my eyes
That hold the secrets that I keep
Persist with your looking
But me you will not see
The day you view who I am
That day will never be
Face to face you think we are
You don't know me
The heart you think I have
Will never be seen
Ensnared by your kind
Many times in past
So I defend this heart of mine
Your act will not last
To break my heart
You'll never get the chance
I won't even let you close enough
To cast a single glance
So move along Casanova
Before in you I strike fear
Those lies and your false promises
Are no longer needed here

The day I left my world for yours
I thought I would never return to mine
But you pushed me out the door
I no longer fit your design

Walking down this road
It's dark and I'm alone
I admit I'm scared without you
I don't remember my way home

Your world we made our home
All the fun and memories
We shared in that bright world of yours
Making Love Story our melody

Sometimes there's no more breath in me
My blood ceases to run
My heart no longer beats
Since you are not the one

The funeral of my heart I attended today
It's buried in the sand
So the tides will carry it out one day
Right into your hand

So swim inside the ocean
Promise to think of me
Only there does my heart beat for you
Deep under the sea

My love is knocking
Like a wave pounds the shore
Washing up over you
But yet you lock your door

So my love recedes in tide
To await fairer weather
When it no longer has to hide
And we can be together

Though that day may never come
I refuse to give up hope
My life depends on your love alone
Without it I couldn't cope

I will walk away
Relinquish my ties to thee
Please do not get caught in my storm
Or you will cease to be

Temperamental as the tides
Violent lashing when enraged
Angry that your love subsides
My jealousy will not assuage

But I assure you
This too shall pass
We will have fun again
My tantrums never last

I love you and you love me
Said the seashore to the sea
But our love will float away
We were never meant to be

I finally figured us out
Our wild, crazy existence
We only make sense to eachother
As in the tide we dance

True we were once lovers
Passionate, on fire
But in the end
We should be friends
What we most desire

I know every contour of your shores
And every grain of sand
But I move on, just as before
On to higher land

Moving on is ok
We will always keep in touch
Forever colliding sand and sea
Mixing up so much

You have a blissful life
Awaiting on the beach
Bliss, in the form of a girl
With a lot more love to teach

I will look on from beneath the surface
With a smile you can trace
Glad that my best friend is loved
To see the love light shine from his face

Flowing now are calmer waters
Peace I now give to you
Enjoy the memories left to me
And the love I gave to you

Follow your heart
Never cast a second glance
I'm thankful for the fairytale you gave me
Thanks for giving me a chance
-The End-

The Goddess
She cries,
Tears on my shoulder.
Together
We mourn,
Pain I endure.
Storms
In her eyes
Lightly to the ground.
In mine
Full of lies,
Gaze up to no sound.
Wash away
Clouded vision
Your tears upon my eyes
Reveal
Bright hues
Promising in the skies.

The visage of thee hast escaped my minds eye.
Thou sweet countenance vanished from the path.
Wilt thou have me die?
Wilt thou have me feign death's wrath?

Lo,
I search,
You're tresses I dare not see.
Behold I have wandered close behind,

Nevermore,
I fear,
A glimpse to be.
Not one on Earth as your resplendent face doth I find.

Pacing poles,
North as due South.
To hearken unto the whispers of your nectarous mouth......

Bittersweet nights,
Echoing slumber.
Leaving behind all the
Brightness and wonder.


Darker than it was before
Darker than I knew
Swallowing the empty room
Your slipping out of view


Deeper into this I know
Farther than before
I'll miss you as you'll miss me
Happiness what we'll fall for


This is how
it has to be
You know it
So do I


The end of "us"
Is where we are
It's time to say goodbye

Outside the window
I see the snow
There's nothing I can do

It's as cold out there
As it is in my heart
Waiting here for you

Suffering through Christmas
Alone beside the tree
Remembering the day when it
Was only you and me

The world ices over
Before my eyes
The wind is blowing strong

Freezing me
Down to the bone
I thought you were the one

Awaiting for the Spring to come
All the ice to melt away
But even when the chill is gone
You won't be here to stay

Dreaming of all the flowers,
Happiness, and sun
Even when Spring does get here
In my heart there will be none

For every cycle has its end
Mine has come to pass
I should've known, just like the seasons
We could never last

So as the months go by
And the calender's seasons change
I'm stuck in this cold Winter
My season stays the same

Sitting at this window
Knowing what I see
Knowing I will never feel
What everyone else seems to be

All other people
Feel the light of Spring
Experience the heat of Summer
And all the happiness Fall brings

For me it's only Winter
Shorter days, even longer nights
By this window I spend my day
Searching for your light

The light you brought into
This dark heart of mine
When you left you put it out
Gone, without a sign

Here by this window
I search everyday
Waiting for your light to shine
And my Winter to fade away

But the sun never shines
Down on my face
Happiness I do not see
There never is a trace

Patiently I view the land
Empty and quiet everywhere
Your footsteps hidden under the snow
Like you were never there

The wind whispers through the cracks
In a sweet, soft tone
Almost creating a presence here
Where I am so alone

In this place of ice and cold
Where Christmas never appears
Excitement from the days of old
Is now replaced with tears

Someone move along this season
Winter, and all my fears
So I will have a reason again,
To smile when Spring is near