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blythe Apr 2013

I said "Leave me alone"
But I really want you to stay by my side
Wanting to feel you more.

I said "I'm fine"
Though I'm really not
While pretending I'm really just fine.

I said "I don't love you"
But when you look into my heart,
You'll see your name written all over it.

I said "I moved on"
Though I'm still under the shadows of my past
Not letting me move forward.

I said "I surely can do it"
But there are a lot of doubts and fear inside me
Putting my hopes down.

I said "I'm brave and strong"
Though I have never been that tough enough
Always being afraid of going beyond my comfort zone.

I said "I'm like an open book"
But the truth is I have never let anyone see the whole real me
Still hiding under my shell like a frightened turtle.

Sometimes, what I said is not what I really mean
Making others confused of my real thoughts and feelings.

blythe Apr 2013

Fighting! (Triolet)

Do not easily give up, don't lose hope
Problems may just be blessings in disguise,
Hardships may come but we'll manage to cope.
Do not easily give up, don't lose hope
Get on with life, don't just sit back and mope
Our own future, to our attitude lies.
Do not easily give up, don't lose hope
Problems may just be blessings in disguise.

My first triolet :) as taught by my teacher here on Hello :)

Originally written on April 6, 2013

blythe Apr 2013

Whenever Love (Nonet)

Whenever you feel alone and down,
I will be there to cheer you up
Shake off all your woes away
To lighten up your day;
Love you endlessly
To make you feel
How much you
Mean to
Me.

My first Nonet! Thanks to Chuck for teaching me this. :)
How was it? Haha.
I just can't still think of a good title.

blythe Apr 2013

Time

One's lifetime is like a lit candle
Slowly melting down until it burns out of flame.

Time flies faster than an eagle
Unnoticable as a cheetah dashing in the wilderness.

Time is more precious than money or any amount of wealth
'Coz once used, could no longer be earned back.

Time gives choices on what to prioritize
Showing which really matters most.

Time gives more value to life
Making each second count.

A poem I wrote while I was stuck in a traffic jam on my way to school. Haha.

blythe Mar 2013

Vulnerabilities

Faint-hearted.
Have always been afraid to fail
Scared that what might happen could be something unwanted,
Anchored on the shore not wanting to sail.

Emotional.
A slightly rude word could crush the heart,
Always upset, treating everything as fatal,
Easily feel hurt.

Perfectionist.
Too much attention on a very little thing,
Obsessed of perfection,
Ending up missing to see the bigger picture.

Timidity.
Too shy to speak up,
Doesn't want to get others attention,
So everything was kept hidden inside.

Love.
Wanting to make everyone happy by showing affection,
Trying hard not to hurt anyone,
Ended up making self-sacrifice actions.

I consider some of these as strengths but somehow lead to vulnerabilities too in the end.

blythe Mar 2013

I'm Fine

When you feel like dying,
Would you still be able to smile and say,
"I'm fine!"?

Whenever I'm asked,
"I'm fine" is always my reply,
Though deep inside, I'm screaming -
"Help!"
"Anyone?"
"Please?"

Inside me is a young lady
Feeling that much pain daily
But tells no one about it
And keeps on pretending everything is just fine.

Due to my debilitating health
I can't do much of the things I wanna do,
Always restricted -
Always being protected.

To live for me is to struggle,
Struggling hard to keep my heart beating,
To keep on breathing.

Sometimes,
I wonder,
Would it be better to give up
And just let death take over my body
'Coz, honestly,
I have been so tired of fighting -
Tired of struggling hard.

But I don't want anyone to notice
How much pain I'm feeling
'Coz I don't want to keep them worrying.

So whenever someone asked how do I feel,
I'll just say "I'm fine"
And flash a smile
Reassuring them that I'm really just fine.

blythe Mar 2013

Summer

Done feeling the shivers from cold blows of wind
No longer need the warmth of those thick sweaters
'Coz now the sun is out shining so bright enticing us to unwind
Feeling its warm kiss on my skin while its rays reflect like glitters.

People going on out of town vacations
Beach resorts are the common target locations
Chillin' out under the sun, not worrying to have some skin discoloration,
Wearing colorful swimwear that get a lot of attention.

Summer is the perfect time to have some rest
Be freed from all the stress;
Like living life at its best
Feeling the sun rays' warm caress.

Just excited for a summer vacation :)