I thought this feeling was long gone
Have been long buried in the past
Have been totally forgotten,
And wounds from being hurt was healed.
But then, one day we met again,
Just seeing his smile makes my knees weak
As if I'll fall in the ground in an instant;
When he walked towards me
Standing so close to him
My heart is pounding hard
As if jumping of joy for being near with him again;
Then he opened his arms
Wrapped it around me
Pulled me closer to him
'Til I felt my body trembled
Feeling such a bliss,
Feeling his heart beating,
Feeling the warmth of his hug.
I surely missed him -
Missed talking with him,
Missed holding his arm,
Missed his sweet smile,
Missed his soothing voice,
Missed his gentle caress,
Missed his arms lightly placed on my shoulders or on my hips,
I missed him totally.
In less than an hour we spent together,
I felt so much happiness
Every second with him was so precious
It's his presence and love that my heart is always yearning for.
It's just so sad,
Really sad for me
And it's breaking my heart
Knowing that we can't be like that forever;
Knowing that he'll forever be just my best friend,
And we can't be more than that.
My mind tells me to forget this feeling,
But my heart doesn't want to,
'Coz the truth is -
It can't.
I don't care if this is hurting me,
'Coz just being with him gives me much happiness -
So much happiness only him could make me feel.

When in the midst of decision making
For me, is a season of lamenting
'Coz it always appears confusing
Not sure where my thoughts are heading.

The smile on my face never fade
Though deep inside I'm hurt badly;
To understand everybody, I think, is the reason why I'm made
I care for them sincerely;
Whenever someone could no longer handle a thing,
I'll be there as their shock absorber;
They can pour out on me anything
And I can assure I'll be a good secret keeper;
I always lend my ears to anyone
Be a friend to depend on;
Be with them to have fun
Not worrrying on whatever we have done;
If they are feeling blue
I'll be there to cheer 'em up;
If sadness spreads easily like a flu
I'll create an antidote to make it stop.
I realized, to others I care a lot
Not expecting for anything in return from them;
Maybe, this heart that I got
Is just too kind and too fragile as a piece of thin gem.
It's always my pleasure to inspire someone
And give some pieces of advice;
My shoulder are small but it's meant to be leaned on by anyone
Cry there and from their loneliness they'll rise.
It makes me happy when I'm spreading love,
And it gives me strength when I'm loved sincerely;
But sometimes, it is also love
That makes me too vulnerable and the reason why I'm hurt deeply.
Now I'm thinking,
Is love my shining armor
Or is it my kryptonite?

One dull grey day had just passed
Leaving me feel like an outcast
Then thinking of what had gone wrong
For me not to feel strong.

With one eyebrow raised
One hand cupping the face
And the other scratching my head
While my back straightened on my bed.

As I think deeper and deeper
The thoughts are getting weirder and creepier
Making me feel like lost in a big crowd
Making me shout out loud.

When I already calmed down
I shook my head and frowned
Realizing I have more important things to do
Than just to keep on feeling so blue.

I want an escape from my reality
And live in my fantasy
But then I ended up drowning in miseries
'Coz I was overcome by my worries.

So I stood up with head held high
And said, "I am now ready fly" -
Fly away from sorrows
And look up for better tomorrows.